ive got love for all of my right reasons. it feels so honest to admit it.

[haute___colours]

longs talks at night are the best. right before bed when youre all tucked in and your window is open. i think im most vulnerable at that moment. so to have such a deep conversation right before i fall under is probably the best feeling in the world

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[hollygolighty]

I do agree that it is important to make yourself happy but in my opinion there are outside sources that everyone needs in order for that to happen. There are things to be learned from every friend you ever have in your life. If you think that you are left with nothing with a batch of friends change and move on then wow I kinda feel sorry for you, I think you are always left with bits and pieces of them for the rest of your life. Your friends leave imprints on you, your life, your personality whether you want them to or not. Without friends I don't believe anyone can be truly happy. You always have family but sometimes they are just not enough. This next part may offend you but I think its kinda funny that you are syaing all of this. You crave attention and you have never been happy unless you were in some kind of relationship. Part of you being so happy with yourself now is because of Jake. So you have a job now and you are figuring your life out and you have goals and ambition now but you think you're gonna be able to do all that without some kind of support? hmm no prolly not you need friends in your life and you will gain knowlegdge from every person you ever come into contact with.

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[haute___colours]

part of me being so happy with myself is, because jake opened my eyes. yeah growing up and out of old things helps you realize whats really out in the world. and... there is nothing funny about this or any of these comments. im glad you think its kind of funny though. honestly, meeting jake has been the greatest thing so far. im starting to feel somewhat confident about my life. im starting to realize what i can have and what i want to accomplish.
people do make imprints on your life. yeah you do need friends i guess. ive never really had any though. you were my friend, i looked up to you. i remember when you had so much going on for yourself. you were happy and you had an idea of the direction you wanted for your life. remember you were so into photography and stupid animals. thats all you cared about was your presentation about animal rights or whatever. i was so proud to look up to you. and i dont want to look up to you anymore because im not that little girl. im older now and so are you. but why do i feel like if i dont let our friendship go then i'll still be trying my hardest to find reasons why it should continue.?.
am i so desperate for a friend, will i drive slowly in my car just to stay at the pace of their bike?
none of this makes sense its a bunch of fragmented thoughts thrown together.
i have nothing else to say.

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[hollygolighty]

let our friendship go then my bike and I would never want to hold you back