my cereal was better than yours.
i accidently fell asleep last night. i slept soooo much now i feel really good. plus waking up is sweet... when you have a surprise waiting for you. hmmmm.. slept on couch also last night. ewww. i just couldnt fall back asleep. i dont know how to work any TV's didnt have anything to read. last resort... go to couch fall asleep by myself.. go back to bed when i'm half asleep half awake. thats what heaven feels like i bet. well actually yeah it does. because i'll make my own heaven.. thats what jake says.. you can make yer own heaven.. or something like that. so im making mine feel like when youre asleep but still awake. mmmm yup.
anyways. i had good cereal this morning. hmmm.. this journal entry is so gay. i should probably start writing better stuff in here.. oh wait.. its my fucking journal i can write whatever the fuck i want to. also. you took the time to read this.. so obviously youre interested in what i have to say about nothingness.
i had a long nice talk last night in the car. i fucking fell asleep on accident Kyle is going to KILL me. i feel horrible. um.. im probably not doing anything tonite. i start my job tomorrow or training which is sweet. stacey prolly will carpool with me. here's hoping. i need to find money for gas. yesterday a huge rock put a hole in my windsheild. jake says im a cutter. but im not. i got offended i dunno why. probably because its the stupidest thing someone could possibly do to themselves. id rather be buliemic or however u spell that word. actually one point in my life i had something of the sort. maybe i could try it out again. no i think i want to be anorexic. yeah.. i like when my stomach growls. yum. i love the feeling of being hungry and not being able to eat. also. my eyes hurt really bad. i miss the past. i miss spending time with jake, and it feeling like true quailty time spent. also. i figured it out last night that no matter where im at in my life and who im around.. i'll never fit in with any "scene", people, things... i'll accept the one thing i used to hate admitting.. yes indeed i am a loner. and i like to be i guess. i think im happier when im alone. which is the weirdest thing i could say. because for so long my biggest fear was ... being alone.
also i want to be a cowgirl. not a drunk one though. but... with a cowboy hat maybe you'll like me more. hahaha. ;)
.i just felt like rambling.
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anyways. i had good cereal this morning. hmmm.. this journal entry is so gay. i should probably start writing better stuff in here.. oh wait.. its my fucking journal i can write whatever the fuck i want to. also. you took the time to read this.. so obviously youre interested in what i have to say about nothingness.
i had a long nice talk last night in the car. i fucking fell asleep on accident Kyle is going to KILL me. i feel horrible. um.. im probably not doing anything tonite. i start my job tomorrow or training which is sweet. stacey prolly will carpool with me. here's hoping. i need to find money for gas. yesterday a huge rock put a hole in my windsheild. jake says im a cutter. but im not. i got offended i dunno why. probably because its the stupidest thing someone could possibly do to themselves. id rather be buliemic or however u spell that word. actually one point in my life i had something of the sort. maybe i could try it out again. no i think i want to be anorexic. yeah.. i like when my stomach growls. yum. i love the feeling of being hungry and not being able to eat. also. my eyes hurt really bad. i miss the past. i miss spending time with jake, and it feeling like true quailty time spent. also. i figured it out last night that no matter where im at in my life and who im around.. i'll never fit in with any "scene", people, things... i'll accept the one thing i used to hate admitting.. yes indeed i am a loner. and i like to be i guess. i think im happier when im alone. which is the weirdest thing i could say. because for so long my biggest fear was ... being alone.
also i want to be a cowgirl. not a drunk one though. but... with a cowboy hat maybe you'll like me more. hahaha. ;)
.i just felt like rambling.
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