this is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
my entire body hurts. american eagle hates me . i had to work 830-3 today and tomorrow is 8-2, not bad hours, just bad hours of the morning. gary and i fought tonight. about the same things we always fight about, and that made me cry. i cry a lot since he left. almost everyday. i miss him so much and i have no real friends that come see me. i get a phone call when someone is bored, but that's it. i miss my boyfriend and i want him to be home now. i don't even talk to people i genuinely loved two years ago. my crew is gone. the people at work are nice, but it's not the same as my HT people. we all loved each other. i wish i had more friends. i'm scared because i'm having a root canal on thursday and then next friday i have my wisdom teeth out and then two weeks after that i get ANOTHER root canal. i'm a dental disaster. i'm sick of hanging out with my gary's family. i love them, i really do, but we get zero quality time and his mom gets some sick pleasure out of embarassing him , which woud be funny if he didn't look so damn uncomfortable. i'm so sad tonight. it hurts. i hate this empty feeling. i hate that everyone has such full lives and i dont. i feel like i'm being left behind by the people i love most. i want you all to be there the way you were before college and jobs and moving away. my door is always open, please come back...