Lonely
So, I have been dealing with a lot of lonliness issues lately. Not romantically, as I have Christina. But just general lonliness. I don't feel like I have many people that I can talk to, or that are really available to hang out with. I think this is partly my fault. I haven't made myself very available in the past I don't think. And I regret that.
One of my old friends and I have been talking again since last summer. Lately she has been a good way for me to feel like I have somebody to talk to. Especially about things that I can't really talk to others about. But she lives too far away for us to really hang out. And as Summer progresses and her work becomes busier (as is happening now) I will get to talk to her less. And really, it shouldn't be her burden to have to entertain me and keep me company all the time.
I don't know... I need to find people near by that I can hang out with and talk to more often. But I have never really been very good at that. When I moved back to Portland it took me about 2 years before I had stable friends to hang out with on a regular basis. 2 years... thats a long time. I have been up here for almost 3 and still haven't.
I just need to figure out what to do with myself.
One of my old friends and I have been talking again since last summer. Lately she has been a good way for me to feel like I have somebody to talk to. Especially about things that I can't really talk to others about. But she lives too far away for us to really hang out. And as Summer progresses and her work becomes busier (as is happening now) I will get to talk to her less. And really, it shouldn't be her burden to have to entertain me and keep me company all the time.
I don't know... I need to find people near by that I can hang out with and talk to more often. But I have never really been very good at that. When I moved back to Portland it took me about 2 years before I had stable friends to hang out with on a regular basis. 2 years... thats a long time. I have been up here for almost 3 and still haven't.
I just need to figure out what to do with myself.