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Lately I've had a few people point out what a little bitch I've been lately. And they are right.
I have decided to change my attitude and get back to the person I used to be just not so young and nieve.
Nick gave Monster and I a long talk about why we should be nicer to Brad. He was totally right. Lately I've been saying alot of things that I really shouldn't have. I hve known him for over 14 years. Sure there was that gap when we lost touch but then we became friends again in high school. We've had our differences but everyone does.
Monster has a right to have her tiffs with him, I don't. I don't really go off on Ian when he and Monster are on the outs and I should do the same with Brad. I told him I was sorry and would like to start fresh. He seems to have accepted my apology. I met his boyfriend Mikey. He's a sweet guy and for once I'm glad to see Brad happy.
Ian's been annoying me lately. He's put on some invincibility act that is going to get him in trouble. He was screwing around with a sophmore in HIGH SCHOOL. Same age if not younger then my sister. I don't know the full extent of their relationship but dude it was gross. Tonight I saw him with this girl Sally. I don't know what the deal with her is but she seems cool. She works at Disney (big surprise). I just hate having to play babysitter. I know it sound like I shouldnt but I worry about him he is like my brother.
I've been worried about Monster lately. She's been down with everything going on. She's felt like she doesnt have a purpose in life. I told her the only thing I retained from Mrs Cardenas 3rd grade class "God doesn't make junk". Everyones here for a reason. Some people just take a bit longer to realise that and find what they are ment to do. I know that one day Monsters going to make a difference. She's made a huge impact on my life and I hope she knows that she can do it for others as well.
So I've started hanging out with Carrie from high school. Its nice to have her around all the time again. She and Dianna are awsome. It's nice to have intelligent girl friends. Marissa was a joke, Laura is hard to touch base with, and Nessa can only chill on weekends. I hope things stay steady for a bit. Lord knows with my luck it wont.