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How did this happen? How did this get so bad so fast?
I keep having these fucked up dreams. Asamar in the graveyard. Then the ones where I'm talking to Fish, like after a good ten years have passed. ...He said he'd still love me no matter what I did. I just can't see that. I can't see either of them, ANY of them, taking this well.
Julian didn't. Fuck, he wasn't even supposed to remember.
I want to distract myself from this. The Battle is completely delayed because of this. It'll make a summer event easily, or maybe even a fall thing, but this isn't happening in May. Not unless I really bust my ass. I still need to talk to Keating and Mathilda. I actually think seeing Fish again is a bad idea. If I just ease away from him, it'll make telling him easier. Won't it?
I don't know what to fucking do. That one dream had the name of the school counserlor in it. Maybe I should go talk to him.
Zoe and Teddy must think I'm completely out of my mind for waking up like that the other day. I still feel weird when I pass Zoe in the house or at school. Teddy still gives me kind of strange looks every now and then.
This is just getting too big too fast.
I keep having these fucked up dreams. Asamar in the graveyard. Then the ones where I'm talking to Fish, like after a good ten years have passed. ...He said he'd still love me no matter what I did. I just can't see that. I can't see either of them, ANY of them, taking this well.
Julian didn't. Fuck, he wasn't even supposed to remember.
I want to distract myself from this. The Battle is completely delayed because of this. It'll make a summer event easily, or maybe even a fall thing, but this isn't happening in May. Not unless I really bust my ass. I still need to talk to Keating and Mathilda. I actually think seeing Fish again is a bad idea. If I just ease away from him, it'll make telling him easier. Won't it?
I don't know what to fucking do. That one dream had the name of the school counserlor in it. Maybe I should go talk to him.
Zoe and Teddy must think I'm completely out of my mind for waking up like that the other day. I still feel weird when I pass Zoe in the house or at school. Teddy still gives me kind of strange looks every now and then.
This is just getting too big too fast.