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Sometimes I think..I realized that i bake when I get upset or think..I just baked..Alot has been on my mind right now..
I talked to one of my friends yesterday and found out her dad was abusive mentally and verbally ...and it just made me think about my mom and her situation and her and I talked about it for a while last night, like I sometimes feel the need to talk to my mom because it makes me feel better, and I just think, my life could be worse, I mean, it's far from it by tons, but it makes me mad when people act like brats because they can't do things they want..I am lucky that I get to do almost anything I want, but I work for my parents respect, and it takes alot, and to think that someone that I don't know super well told me that..it saddened me, and I got to know her really well yesterday and I found we were soo much alike..but when I went to her house once, I would have never known that it happened..
I miss my freshman year when my two best friends were Kayla and Jamie, when Xanga didn't exist and not everyone blogged..when my group of friends were huge, even though I am slowly getting back into that group..I'm glad..b/c I love them..I just hate how alot of them have lost morals and self respect..I hate how high school has changed people for the worst..
I am scared for my friend...I know it seems miniscule at the time...but it's not really a healthy thing. I have decided that I am staying out of it, I told my mom everything,and she agreed that..it wasn't good and I figured that is all I can do. I just sometimes wish that people could be on the other side. Obsessiveness = not good! I mean...I care about my friend soo much, she's my best friend, I would do anything for her..so I guess thats why it scares me is because i have no control and I have to watch it, so I am starting to think that if I don't say anything, that I won't have to deal with it..I just hate being stepped on and talked about behind my back (by the boyfriend). I mean...It's like I can't be nice..and him actually be nice too...It's not fair to me, so I don't want to even talk to him...I just don't want anything to happen and I know that no matter what, I will feel responsible..
<33 Hannah
I talked to one of my friends yesterday and found out her dad was abusive mentally and verbally ...and it just made me think about my mom and her situation and her and I talked about it for a while last night, like I sometimes feel the need to talk to my mom because it makes me feel better, and I just think, my life could be worse, I mean, it's far from it by tons, but it makes me mad when people act like brats because they can't do things they want..I am lucky that I get to do almost anything I want, but I work for my parents respect, and it takes alot, and to think that someone that I don't know super well told me that..it saddened me, and I got to know her really well yesterday and I found we were soo much alike..but when I went to her house once, I would have never known that it happened..
I miss my freshman year when my two best friends were Kayla and Jamie, when Xanga didn't exist and not everyone blogged..when my group of friends were huge, even though I am slowly getting back into that group..I'm glad..b/c I love them..I just hate how alot of them have lost morals and self respect..I hate how high school has changed people for the worst..
I am scared for my friend...I know it seems miniscule at the time...but it's not really a healthy thing. I have decided that I am staying out of it, I told my mom everything,and she agreed that..it wasn't good and I figured that is all I can do. I just sometimes wish that people could be on the other side. Obsessiveness = not good! I mean...I care about my friend soo much, she's my best friend, I would do anything for her..so I guess thats why it scares me is because i have no control and I have to watch it, so I am starting to think that if I don't say anything, that I won't have to deal with it..I just hate being stepped on and talked about behind my back (by the boyfriend). I mean...It's like I can't be nice..and him actually be nice too...It's not fair to me, so I don't want to even talk to him...I just don't want anything to happen and I know that no matter what, I will feel responsible..
<33 Hannah