It just keeps happening...
So today was the fifth time in the past couple weeks that my best friend has made plans with me and then called last-miinute saying he couldn't make it. He's cancelled on occassions before, and that's understandable cuz things happen, but now it's just getting upsetting. I don't want to seem selfish or clingy, but it just kind of hurts to have him keep changing plans. It's always for different reasons- something else came up, he didn't feel up to it, getting too late- but a lot of the time he says, "I'll explain later," but I never get to see him later for him to tell me. It just sux. We've always been so close- the first person either of us will go to if we need to talk. So why am I getting left behind? I visited him last night and everything seemed fine. I talk to him online and everything seems fine. I had a dream that he was mad at me about something, but when I talked to him he said it was impossible for him to be mad at me. I just don't know what's going on. Does he even realize how often he does this?
There's a part of me that knows I probably should say something- I'd tell any of my other friends that if something's bothering them they need to say so. But at the same time, he's harder on himself than anyone should ever be and he has weeks where he thinks he's the worst person in the world (for no reason at all). If I tell him I hate how we hardly see each other anymore and I'd rather he just say he can't hang out than let me down easy (if that's what he's doing), then what would that do to him? I'm supposed to be the understanding one. I don't want him to pull away even more thinking that he's only upsetting me. He would do it. I don't want to do that to him...