choices
are hard. especially when it feels as though there isn't one. like deciding to be a happier person, a more positive person. i know i have the power to make that choice, i've done it before. but most days it just feels impossible.
or the big life choices. school feels anything but right. however, if i drop... loads of people will be really sad. because, you know, i'm possibility girl... in different forms. the problem is, i think my possibilities are very very different than what most people think of.
i read a quote the other day that said something about how maybe we can never find true happiness; that we're only allowed the pursuit of happiness. i haven't yet fully decided how i feel about this.
i've been feeling very pensive lately, but also very subdued, a little sad, and really lonely. the thought of spending time with people just hardly ever seems like a good idea anymore. which is silly, because once i'm there everything is terrific and i realize how much i've missed everyone and how silly i'm being.
i get to go home next week. hallelujah. i miss my mommy.
i'm sorry for such a hodgepodge of nothing. this is how my brain has been lately.
p.s. i don't mean to sound whiney at all, i just needed some sort of outlet that i could come back to later.
or the big life choices. school feels anything but right. however, if i drop... loads of people will be really sad. because, you know, i'm possibility girl... in different forms. the problem is, i think my possibilities are very very different than what most people think of.
i read a quote the other day that said something about how maybe we can never find true happiness; that we're only allowed the pursuit of happiness. i haven't yet fully decided how i feel about this.
i've been feeling very pensive lately, but also very subdued, a little sad, and really lonely. the thought of spending time with people just hardly ever seems like a good idea anymore. which is silly, because once i'm there everything is terrific and i realize how much i've missed everyone and how silly i'm being.
i get to go home next week. hallelujah. i miss my mommy.
i'm sorry for such a hodgepodge of nothing. this is how my brain has been lately.
p.s. i don't mean to sound whiney at all, i just needed some sort of outlet that i could come back to later.