... x_x tomorrow ish the day ...
yeah.. in a few minutes.. >> i'll be turning 24...
*sighs* i dunno.. i hav mixed feelings about the whole thing.. but the most prominent feeling that ish surfacing ish.. >> blahness.. xP
yeah.. >> i dunno.. im not too happeh with the fact that im now in my mid-20's ..
>> im really dreading tomorrow..
i dont mind people greeting me and such coz when sumone greets me, i feel touched that im important enuf to have my bday remembered by them..
what saddens me ish the fact that.. im 24 and that i will still be entering the same damn depressing entry in my journal, "life is shit.. life is unfair.. life sucks.. hello world, i just turned 24 and yet another lonely year has gone by"
what makes it worse ish yet another batch of annoying qs that drives me crazy and makes me wanna go and bury myself in sum random coffee shop and smoke to my hearts content and loose myself in the smoke..XP
"oh so yer 20+ already.. do u hav a bf? when are u planning to get a bf? my goodness! yer 24 already! u should get a bf now.. the clock ish ticking!!! >> oh my, looks like you gained weight again! u should diet so that you'll get a bf!"
did i get anything on my bday? in real life.. >> im positively sure that the only gifts i will get will be from my immediate family.. oh, my cuzin from canada who vacationed here for a month gave me sum starbucks souvenirs.. but besides her and my family.. >> thats it.. im not expecting anything else from anybody else.. >> yeah.. i dont have anymore close friends irl besides my coteacher mel.. i mean, i just realized.. that ive never spilled my guts irl to anyone but jordan (my cuzin) and mel.. and thats it.. i suck at keeping relationships intact.. the close friends i used to hav in high school and college hav faded away.. its the introvert in me i guess.. that i dont pursue relationships.. that i dont go out very often hence i lose contact..
*sighs*
i will probably buy myself a gift.. i dunno.. probably anime or a book.. but thats it.. my mom ish planning to giv me a starbucks tumbler (my old one has its handle broken..xP) and i knw my bro and sis will be sharing a gift.. i think they are gonna buy me a victoria's secret garden series body spray.. "ROMANTIC WISH" which i like.. soooo want since last year but i couldnt buy coz its not in my budget (XP costs like Php 600 in the mall).. >> actually they wanna buy me manga.. but since my parents dont approve of manga (XP bleh.. all my anime stuff.. my parents dont knw abt it) and since i hav to show to my parents what my siblings got for me.. i told my brother to get me the VS Romantic Wish instead. Coz i want it badly.. XP
XP yeah.. so my parents are planning to get me a cake.. and hav sum spaghetti (there's always noodles on our bdays.. XD) and thats it. nothing fancy..
so those are the plans for my bday.. meh, i just wanna go to starbucks, drink coffee, and smoke..
._. by myself.. or.. *ponders* i wonder what if i get drunk instead? XP damn.. wish i wasnt allergic to alcoholic drinks.. XP
nyah.. 5 min to go.. XP so there's my depressing sob story..
happy bday to me.. night y'all..
*sighs* i dunno.. i hav mixed feelings about the whole thing.. but the most prominent feeling that ish surfacing ish.. >> blahness.. xP
yeah.. >> i dunno.. im not too happeh with the fact that im now in my mid-20's ..
>> im really dreading tomorrow..
i dont mind people greeting me and such coz when sumone greets me, i feel touched that im important enuf to have my bday remembered by them..
what saddens me ish the fact that.. im 24 and that i will still be entering the same damn depressing entry in my journal, "life is shit.. life is unfair.. life sucks.. hello world, i just turned 24 and yet another lonely year has gone by"
what makes it worse ish yet another batch of annoying qs that drives me crazy and makes me wanna go and bury myself in sum random coffee shop and smoke to my hearts content and loose myself in the smoke..XP
"oh so yer 20+ already.. do u hav a bf? when are u planning to get a bf? my goodness! yer 24 already! u should get a bf now.. the clock ish ticking!!! >> oh my, looks like you gained weight again! u should diet so that you'll get a bf!"
did i get anything on my bday? in real life.. >> im positively sure that the only gifts i will get will be from my immediate family.. oh, my cuzin from canada who vacationed here for a month gave me sum starbucks souvenirs.. but besides her and my family.. >> thats it.. im not expecting anything else from anybody else.. >> yeah.. i dont have anymore close friends irl besides my coteacher mel.. i mean, i just realized.. that ive never spilled my guts irl to anyone but jordan (my cuzin) and mel.. and thats it.. i suck at keeping relationships intact.. the close friends i used to hav in high school and college hav faded away.. its the introvert in me i guess.. that i dont pursue relationships.. that i dont go out very often hence i lose contact..
*sighs*
i will probably buy myself a gift.. i dunno.. probably anime or a book.. but thats it.. my mom ish planning to giv me a starbucks tumbler (my old one has its handle broken..xP) and i knw my bro and sis will be sharing a gift.. i think they are gonna buy me a victoria's secret garden series body spray.. "ROMANTIC WISH" which i like.. soooo want since last year but i couldnt buy coz its not in my budget (XP costs like Php 600 in the mall).. >> actually they wanna buy me manga.. but since my parents dont approve of manga (XP bleh.. all my anime stuff.. my parents dont knw abt it) and since i hav to show to my parents what my siblings got for me.. i told my brother to get me the VS Romantic Wish instead. Coz i want it badly.. XP
XP yeah.. so my parents are planning to get me a cake.. and hav sum spaghetti (there's always noodles on our bdays.. XD) and thats it. nothing fancy..
so those are the plans for my bday.. meh, i just wanna go to starbucks, drink coffee, and smoke..
._. by myself.. or.. *ponders* i wonder what if i get drunk instead? XP damn.. wish i wasnt allergic to alcoholic drinks.. XP
nyah.. 5 min to go.. XP so there's my depressing sob story..
happy bday to me.. night y'all..