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Everytime I look at my friends LJ's they have like pages worth of stuff to tell their fans.
I am sorry that I usually don't.
So today I shall try to make a semi long and semi interesting entry onto this holiest of Blogs.
First off, my trip to Michigan.
The thing was really great. I got to ride horses twice a day, hung out with the coolest people, went to the lake several times to swim/boat/stare at the water and the like. It kind of sucked though because I acted really shy around most of the people and that is SO unlike myself that it is really sort of scary.
The people there were great. There was this one guy named Charlie who was fantastically funny (and I will admit proudly, very good looking), there of course were the twins, Alex and Jordan- damn, they made Dance Night something that will probably be etched in my memory forever. Michelle was cool too. I met her last year and we clicked so it was great seeing her again. Catey, she's in a category of her own. I loved her though. Jake (which would be Dan's buddy pleh.) He was ok. He could be funny, key word COULD.
The people there was what was the best. I think if I went on a different week next year it would not be as exciting.
Secondly! Some stuff...
There is this book I am currently reading called Shout Down the Moon by Lisa Tucker. It's really good and very interesting. Since I suck at summerising things on my own I will copy the summary from the back of the book-
Patty Taylor can handle anything. So what if the guys in her band dismiss her as just a pretty face, hired by their manager to make them more popular? She's already survived a bad childhood, a destructive teenage relationship, homelessness, and working twelve hour shifts washing dishes. Traveling with the bad gives her a way to provide for Willie, the two year old son she adores.
But on a hot summer day in Kentucky, when Willie's father shows up outside her hotel room, newly paroled from prison and intent on having her and his son back, Patty begins a journey that will change her from a girl who can put up with anything to a woman with a voice that can bring the house donw. Shout Down the Moon is about following dreams and overcoming obstacles, about finding your voice and becoming the hero of your own life. In Patty Taylor, Lisa Trucker has created an unlikely heroine, a gutsy girl with a wry sence of humor, whose life will depend on having the courage to trust in her big talent and even bigger heart.
I know what you all are thinking. I thought it too when I picked it up and read the back. But I flipped through the pages, stopped and read a few paragraphs and was instantly hooked. (Try reading a few paragraphs in the middle of the book, sometmimes that helps alot more than the summary)
I suggest picking up a copy and reading it. It's got a few adult themes, so children under 15 beware!
Ok, so after the book and the trip, all I can think of writing now is about the thing that has been on my mind the most the past few weeks, and talking to Jordan about it last week just kinda intensified my fear.
Collage.
I have two years before I go off to it. I don't even know WHAT it is that I want to be doing with my life. I don't know what collage I want to go to, I don't even know if I will qualify for most of them! I really don't want to go to a community collage because I really want to get out of here and DO something. But I am afraid that if I pick the wrong thing (like the wrong collage, or wrong major) that I will regret it and have no way to go back and fix it. I was talking to Jordan (who just got out of his freshman year in collage) and he was trying to tell me that, oh it's ok, no one really knows what they are doing... but all I heard was BlaBlaBla...
I mean, I should really listen to him because he IS already in collage and probably went through the same fear and doubt that I am going through, but still. It didn't help.
And now my mother tells me that me taking the SATs this year is the thing I have to do, and that I have to start looking at collages and oh my GOD my head is going to explode!
I think the thing I am really afraid of is accepting the fact that I am growing up. (This explains why most of my friends are at least a year younger than me). I have this deep fear of being older and being out of the comfort of my parents-being on my own. I mean shit-I am going to be 18 in 15 months.
Everything is just moving too damn fast.
What happened to the times when all I had to worry about was what I was going to do the next day for entertainment?! Look at me now! I am spazzing about going off to collage.
Maybe I can fly off to Neverland and live there for a while. (OMG not Michael Jackson's Neverland you sicko!) [cough] I really need to quit watching Peter Pan related movies.
Ok well enough for now, I think I have written you all a long enough entry. And I need to get back to my ice cream. It's 90 degrees out and it's melting!
love you all!
mel