an ultamatium.
just decided. right here and right now. you want me or you don't. forever, or never again.
Here i am sick and stuck on you. Crying my eyes out. Thinking about you constantly. Praying so hard.
and look at you. Looking for myspace sex. living in a fucking van. letting your life go to hell.
that's not what I want out of life.
unless you can show me, and show me fast, that the boy I love is still around, forget it. I'm not waiting anymore. yeah, you've changed. I have too. but get real.
the world is not over because of what I did. You need to grow up. In a real realationship, people make mistakes. and in a real realationship, the other person forgives and tries to work it out. if we can't have that, then I won't wait.
you're not doing that. I know I said I'd give you time. but you've made it evidently clear to me what you want. you want me to wait, celibate, for you to come around. not gonna happen anymore. not while you're thinking with your cock and trying to get laid. forget it.
I can understand if you want time apart. But I CAN'T understand if you want that and you want me AND you want to fuck some stupid sluts.
I'm better than that. I deserve better.
Nothing is gonna change. you'll keep going like this forever. you need to consiously decide to improve things. you're dragging me down with you, and as badly as I want to help, you won't let me.
I give up. you make me want to throw up. no one who cares for me...could type those words to those girls. you have my heart, but right now, I wish you didn't.
and this time, you'll be the one to lose me. because I'm not waiting very much longer. I don't want good things to pass me by.
and once more, I'll tell you. I love you with everything I have and on the inside, right now, I am scared to death that we'll never be together again if you see this. but you know what? i'm not gonna regret it. i want more. if that turns out to be you... i hope it will. but i can take it if it doesn't.
no more games. you chose what's important to you.
but right now, I don't know if I can forgive you. maybe we're just too far gone.
I won't contact you again. no letters, no calls. this is on you. I'll wait a week.
Here i am sick and stuck on you. Crying my eyes out. Thinking about you constantly. Praying so hard.
and look at you. Looking for myspace sex. living in a fucking van. letting your life go to hell.
that's not what I want out of life.
unless you can show me, and show me fast, that the boy I love is still around, forget it. I'm not waiting anymore. yeah, you've changed. I have too. but get real.
the world is not over because of what I did. You need to grow up. In a real realationship, people make mistakes. and in a real realationship, the other person forgives and tries to work it out. if we can't have that, then I won't wait.
you're not doing that. I know I said I'd give you time. but you've made it evidently clear to me what you want. you want me to wait, celibate, for you to come around. not gonna happen anymore. not while you're thinking with your cock and trying to get laid. forget it.
I can understand if you want time apart. But I CAN'T understand if you want that and you want me AND you want to fuck some stupid sluts.
I'm better than that. I deserve better.
Nothing is gonna change. you'll keep going like this forever. you need to consiously decide to improve things. you're dragging me down with you, and as badly as I want to help, you won't let me.
I give up. you make me want to throw up. no one who cares for me...could type those words to those girls. you have my heart, but right now, I wish you didn't.
and this time, you'll be the one to lose me. because I'm not waiting very much longer. I don't want good things to pass me by.
and once more, I'll tell you. I love you with everything I have and on the inside, right now, I am scared to death that we'll never be together again if you see this. but you know what? i'm not gonna regret it. i want more. if that turns out to be you... i hope it will. but i can take it if it doesn't.
no more games. you chose what's important to you.
but right now, I don't know if I can forgive you. maybe we're just too far gone.
I won't contact you again. no letters, no calls. this is on you. I'll wait a week.