can anybody tell me why God won't speak to me?
the most comfortable i get is an eery unfamiliarity that can consume me but also feel so distant. maybe i should let go, but where would you go to? who would you go to? would any of it matter? these friendships have grown, but maybe too much?
i talked to David about the dreams i have been having. He said from a psychological view, when i dream about my friends cutting me open or trying to kill me, it is me being uncomfortable with how close they are and with how much they know about me. makes sense if you know me at all.
creepy.
shit's going crazy... but i'm so sure of many things and a few people.