go to the grocery store, buy some new friends and find out the beginning, the end and the best of it
i have so much to say. i want to scream at the top of my lungs and tell you so many things but it's like i have no air or voice to get it out, and even if i do get it all out, none of it will even make sense, so it will be a wasted effort that went unheard and uncared for. i just can't get this crawling sensation out of my heart to my throat and into your ears...
i'm not comfortable around anyone anymore... i can't smile when i want to or listen when i'm suppose to.
i'm not happy, but i'm not sad. it's more apathy and discomfort. i'm not sure where to go from here, i thought i needed to change, but maybe i'm changing too much?