hello my name is distance...
i'm fairly happy.
i've been extremely distracted by bullshit that has been going on around me....
i've never felt so loved in my life... and so comfortable with the people i call my friends. but in an uncomfortable and unsure way. (no, you probably don't and can't understand)
i feel so distant but so connected
so in love but apathetic
i have this certainty that is decorated with doubt.
and this familiarity that seems like a discovery.
i have to get up at 4:30 to drive to gastonia to meet kelsey and let her drive me to asheville for the conference. it's going to be AMAZING.
thank you everyone who bought shampoo, seriously <3
even though i am happy, i'm very angry at a couple people. but it's all going to work out, trust me on that one
i miss everyone but i will see them soon, my doubts have kind of diminished.
it must be nice to live in a world where you believe everyone is in love with you. ....the lies people tell themselves.
i feel a change coming.
i went to starbucks tonight at stonecrest and when i was outside smoking a cigarette i noticed a new ladder they put up to the roof. it made me think of taylor... because we all know he likes to climb roof tops =)
things are looking up, and every now and then you can spot me with a GENUINE smile on my face. that's what the couple of you do to me.