Here I come the single life!!!!!!!!
Yeah well. not updated in *thinks*... A long time. Only posting now 'cus don't feel like going to the effort of telling everyone at different times and having to keep on repeating myslef. so read cu if you don't im not going to repeat myself =P
It is thursday the 15th of september about 20 past 4. Nearly 11 months since I started going out with John. In about 8 hours will be the last time I see him before he toddles off to uni. It also marks the end of our relationship. Its been rocky for a while we've been up and down and often trying to find a reason to dig at each other. A while ago he told me although he loves me lots, he know during the 3 weeks when he goes to uni and doesn't see me, something will come along and test his temptation and he will inevitably lose. To anyone who doesn't understand that it means he would be 99.9% likely to cheat on me. after many hours of discussion and lotsa tears (from both sides!) finally on monday I told him we had to break up on thursday (today). And now its today. Dunno what I feel. There is sadness but also a little happy about the lenghs he went to to try and find away to be with me anyway. He tried convincing me being faithful was stupid and people only did it becuase it was seen as 'The right thing to do'. Today he suggested an internet relationshop and also tried to convince me to chose preston university for next year (lol).It saddens me that the world is a FUCKING EVIL PLACE, but im happy that i know John does love me, refuses to get himself into another relationship, Still has funny little things associated with me like the sparkler packet from bonfire night and varios stickers ect. Strangely, it also comforts me to know Im the only one he will cry for. *sigh* we will still be friends and seeing each other some weekends and talking over msn ect. He says he won't find another GF because he'd be comparing everyone to me so no one else has a chance *smiles to self*
yeah so thats reasoning. so =P. And don't pity me! I don't want it!
Also if anyone knows of a male with long blonde hair i can steel for my photogaphy project contact me.
NEM!!!! I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is thursday the 15th of september about 20 past 4. Nearly 11 months since I started going out with John. In about 8 hours will be the last time I see him before he toddles off to uni. It also marks the end of our relationship. Its been rocky for a while we've been up and down and often trying to find a reason to dig at each other. A while ago he told me although he loves me lots, he know during the 3 weeks when he goes to uni and doesn't see me, something will come along and test his temptation and he will inevitably lose. To anyone who doesn't understand that it means he would be 99.9% likely to cheat on me. after many hours of discussion and lotsa tears (from both sides!) finally on monday I told him we had to break up on thursday (today). And now its today. Dunno what I feel. There is sadness but also a little happy about the lenghs he went to to try and find away to be with me anyway. He tried convincing me being faithful was stupid and people only did it becuase it was seen as 'The right thing to do'. Today he suggested an internet relationshop and also tried to convince me to chose preston university for next year (lol).It saddens me that the world is a FUCKING EVIL PLACE, but im happy that i know John does love me, refuses to get himself into another relationship, Still has funny little things associated with me like the sparkler packet from bonfire night and varios stickers ect. Strangely, it also comforts me to know Im the only one he will cry for. *sigh* we will still be friends and seeing each other some weekends and talking over msn ect. He says he won't find another GF because he'd be comparing everyone to me so no one else has a chance *smiles to self*
yeah so thats reasoning. so =P. And don't pity me! I don't want it!
Also if anyone knows of a male with long blonde hair i can steel for my photogaphy project contact me.
NEM!!!! I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!