I don't believe in fairy tales
so yesterday I took my sisters aderoll. I know what your thinking, stupid right taking other peoples drugs. All I want is to read a book, I don't read very well and I was never good at school. I wish I could read stories. To escape from my reality in my own little corner. so I was told to take a half and I took a whole one instead and felt like I just did an 8 ball of coke, even my nose was numb. All day I kept thinking I was going to have a heart attack and you know what...... I didn't care... I was ready to leave this dam world and everything in it. There is no reason to stay. My boys have enough aunts and uncles and family to last them a lifetime, there so young they wont remember me and it might be better if they didnt. I'm overweight, i'm ex druggie who can't handle life.
In the last two day I've been puked on 5 times, pooped on 3 times smacked, hit, hair pulled. I'm usless i don't know how to be a parent, I can't do my job, I'm depressed all the time and I'm a horrible wife. speaking of, I think my huband hates me. he doesn't talk to me, doesn't listen to me, doesn't even care about my birthday, he doesn't care about anything if it's attached to me.
so I though a little aderoll would put me on top of my game... nope
I think i'm gonna take it tomarrow but less. I need to feel perfect, I have to, to survive my home. these kids rely on me......as long as I'm alive......
what kind of friend is this?
Hey I think I have a serious drug problem and i'm scared can you help me....yes.....
(Then does nothing)
Hey I have a lump in my breast, this could be serious............ I know......
I think we need to talk to someone to help us fix our problems...ok.......never says anything about it again.
Im not comming home.............what time do I feed the baby?
well that's my husband
I have nothing to fight for
Why wasn't I given anything to fight for?
In the last two day I've been puked on 5 times, pooped on 3 times smacked, hit, hair pulled. I'm usless i don't know how to be a parent, I can't do my job, I'm depressed all the time and I'm a horrible wife. speaking of, I think my huband hates me. he doesn't talk to me, doesn't listen to me, doesn't even care about my birthday, he doesn't care about anything if it's attached to me.
so I though a little aderoll would put me on top of my game... nope
I think i'm gonna take it tomarrow but less. I need to feel perfect, I have to, to survive my home. these kids rely on me......as long as I'm alive......
what kind of friend is this?
Hey I think I have a serious drug problem and i'm scared can you help me....yes.....
(Then does nothing)
Hey I have a lump in my breast, this could be serious............ I know......
I think we need to talk to someone to help us fix our problems...ok.......never says anything about it again.
Im not comming home.............what time do I feed the baby?
well that's my husband
I have nothing to fight for
Why wasn't I given anything to fight for?