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SO I HEAR NOBODY IS HERE ANYMORE........ bummer cause I'm back
That's ok I wasn't really here for everyone else anyways
that was just a bonus
we'll that's life....first you live then you die...lol
I'm actually a completely different person.. or at least i feel completely different. I'm still a shy person. I still fuck up on a regular basis but for once in my life i haven't fucked up with one thing. My son, so far so good. He is water in hell, light in dark ,inspiration for the dead.
it's so fucking hard though...... for a person like me having this person need me for everything, food care love sleep... he needs me for it all. but it's giving me a purpose. Paul and Andrew are the reason i'm suppose to be here. and it's so cheezy and Sunday school special but it's how i feel and it's the first time in over a decade that I can say I'm truly happy.
but i know in my heart that it all still comes to an end one day
p.s. I just heard my ex Aaron Jones died last aug.
R.I.P. even though I was just a finger
so i breath
and i remember........ today is today and that is all
That's ok I wasn't really here for everyone else anyways
that was just a bonus
we'll that's life....first you live then you die...lol
I'm actually a completely different person.. or at least i feel completely different. I'm still a shy person. I still fuck up on a regular basis but for once in my life i haven't fucked up with one thing. My son, so far so good. He is water in hell, light in dark ,inspiration for the dead.
it's so fucking hard though...... for a person like me having this person need me for everything, food care love sleep... he needs me for it all. but it's giving me a purpose. Paul and Andrew are the reason i'm suppose to be here. and it's so cheezy and Sunday school special but it's how i feel and it's the first time in over a decade that I can say I'm truly happy.
but i know in my heart that it all still comes to an end one day
p.s. I just heard my ex Aaron Jones died last aug.
R.I.P. even though I was just a finger
so i breath
and i remember........ today is today and that is all