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I guess I'll update. Yesterday was pertty shitty. My mom made me get back on my ritalin. All day I felt like shit and wasn't acting myself. I hate it because everyone can tell. Alex told me I didn't need it and so did Ethan. All summer I have been happy, carefree, and feeing good. But my mom dosn't see that, or want to see it. She looks at ritalin as a miracle drug that can fix all or our family problems. She thinks that if Im' on ritalin I will "remember" to do my homework, be nicer to her and my dad and make all a's. What she dosnt see is how depressed I get when I am on it. Last night Ethan came over and it was terrible. He told me I wasnt laughing or smiling like I usually do. It sucks. Well I dont feel like writing in here anymore. bye