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LONG ENTRY!!!!!!!...beware...
Gooooodness!!! My day was pretty boring up untill about an hour ago. Ethan got here at like 9 this morning and we sat around watching Averi untill 1, and then she left for the doctor. After that my cousin Nathan came over to chill for a little bit with Ethan and I. We went to Wendys and paid $8.12 in change. What can I say? I'm poor. Nathan had to leave at like 4 because he had a doctors appointment too! What a coincidence! I fell asleep on the couch untill about 5 when Taneka called. When the phone rang it scared the shit out of me! I talked to her for a few minuets and then decided to come find Ethan and lay back down. We layed down until Rivera got here and he picked up Ethan and went to the apartment to shower. About an hour later everyone met up back here once again as usual to just chill. We had a "sandwich party" and then ventured to the park. Ethan and Rivera played football while Nagar and I swung. {Hmm..or would it be swang? I don't know...}
Nagars mom and dad are doing the whole "take a break" thing again. Only this time she has to take a break from everyone. Usually it is just Rivera. But this time it's me too. I think it's dumb...but I guess they think it's a good idea or something.
alexboombalex: are they trying to mold me into some psycho freak who doesnt have people skills because during the SUMMER OF THEIR JUNIOR YEAR they can only be with friends a certain amount of time on a certain amount of days?
Who knows. Parents are parents. Mine are sick of me and all of my friends. I guess thats what they get for being the "cool" parents and not giving a shit about what anyone does. My dad has been being a major asshole the past few weeks. It's like I have to beg him to say hello to me. I try talking to him, I really do. But nothing seems to work. I feel like he is really unhappy sometimes and wishes he was with a different family other than my fucked up mom and me. I wish I could sit down and have a talk with him to let him know how much he means to me and how much i miss haning out with him and how much I love him. I think I just might ask him to go to lunch with me one day this weekend. But if I did that it could very well start a family fight because my mom would feel left out and start bitching. Who knows.
I owe Ethan. BIG TIME. Tonight he made me feel something I have never felt before. Ever. From any other guy. He makes me smile like no one else ever has. Even though we just sat around all day and did nothing [until about an hour ago], I was happy. I felt really bad at the park though. Not thinking, I ran up from behind him and slammed my body into his. I forgot about his back and I hurt him. He blacked out for a minuet and looked like he was in a lot of pain. I wanted to cry. I felt terrible. But in a way it was a good thing. It showed me that when I hurt him or when he is not happy it hurts me on the inside. It made me realize this is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be and EXACTLY where I want to be. His drug test didn't come in today, but they should call tomorrow. I'm sure it will be good to go and he will be able to start his job sometime next week. It's going to be weird when he starts working and dosn't come over every morning at 7. But I'll get used to it because pretty soon I will be going back to school and all of that good stuff. Nagar is my date for the first day of school. I'm going to go get her and escort her there personally!
Well, this entry is far too long. I just had to get a few things out of my system. I won't be surprised if no one reads it. I feel better now and that's all that matters!!!