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Today was sucky. At the same time, it was good though. Zac decided to ditch me today, and this wouldn't be the first time it's happend so I think I'm going to break up with him. Besides, I've found a boy that I really like and likes me back. Bobby (he was supposed to graduate this year, but isn't.) He's a hottie let me tell you. That kid is so much fun to be around, and I guess he's liked me for a while but just hasn't said anything because I've always been with some other guy. But today during the whole award thing we kinda told each other about how we felt and ya, I think we're going to go out.
You know, I thought I liked Zac a lot, and when we first started going out everything was so perfect, but latley his attitude has changed so dramatically and I'm just not as comfortable around him as I used to be. I was always there for him when he needed me but he, for some reason, couldn't do the same for me.
I talked to a really good friend about this today, and he said that it's almost like Zac has no emotions whatsoever, and I totally get where he was coming from with that. It's like he could kill 12 kids and walk away not feeling anything at all. What does that make him? Careless? Numb? Or just someone trying to act tough? I don't know. It's so crazy, just how much he really doesn't care about anything.
I thought that if me and Zac broke up then I would feel bad about cheating on Zach K. with him because I thought it would seem like it wasn't even worth it and I made a huge mistake. But, oddly enough, that's not the case. It was worth it completely. I loved every second of our relationship when he wasn't so moody and seemed to really care about me and I think that that's what matters most. I know what I like in a guy and what I don't and Zac just isn't what I'm really looking for, at least not anymore. But I do find a lot of things I like in Bobby, I pretty much always have liked him ever since I met the guy. So yeah, I will let you know what happens between us once I get all this other shit taken care of. Peace out!
Kris
You know, I thought I liked Zac a lot, and when we first started going out everything was so perfect, but latley his attitude has changed so dramatically and I'm just not as comfortable around him as I used to be. I was always there for him when he needed me but he, for some reason, couldn't do the same for me.
I talked to a really good friend about this today, and he said that it's almost like Zac has no emotions whatsoever, and I totally get where he was coming from with that. It's like he could kill 12 kids and walk away not feeling anything at all. What does that make him? Careless? Numb? Or just someone trying to act tough? I don't know. It's so crazy, just how much he really doesn't care about anything.
I thought that if me and Zac broke up then I would feel bad about cheating on Zach K. with him because I thought it would seem like it wasn't even worth it and I made a huge mistake. But, oddly enough, that's not the case. It was worth it completely. I loved every second of our relationship when he wasn't so moody and seemed to really care about me and I think that that's what matters most. I know what I like in a guy and what I don't and Zac just isn't what I'm really looking for, at least not anymore. But I do find a lot of things I like in Bobby, I pretty much always have liked him ever since I met the guy. So yeah, I will let you know what happens between us once I get all this other shit taken care of. Peace out!
Kris