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[hatchetgrl]

I didn't have an opportunity to write in here last night, so here is about yesterday. Yesterday I woke up around normal school time and waited in front of the t.v to see if school was going to be closed, or if I had to call in. School was indeed closed, for the second time this week. Since I was home from school, and my dad was home too, my dad decided that yesterday was the day to clean the entire house thoroughly. I mean, that kinda worked. I spent several hours working hard on my room, and I was kinda proud. But, even after searching through all of my stuff, I cannot find the hand turkey Josh made me for my first valentines day with him =/. I think my dad may have thrown it away when he steam cleaned my carpet during x-mas break. After cleaning up around the house, I took a nap and then got ready to go to dinner. After dinner we went and picked up Daniela and went back to the apartment. It was fun hanging out with her, even though my freshly cleaned room got trashed...I haven't had someone sleep over in a long long time. This made me realize how I have compulsive habits that I really hate, like turning the light switch on and off repetitively or needing to have the bed extremely perfect before going in it. I could go on, but I won't. One thing that still makes me feel a little uncomfortable about how much she goes on about how perfect her boyfriend is and how he says all these cute things to her. It's kinda like watching my past through the sidelines. But then again, it's kinda really painful to hear about. I've told her before that kinda stuff upset me. Like she would go in depth to me over the internet sometimes that made me cry. I really miss Josh so much, I just seriously love that man so much. I could never get sick of saying I love him. I just really want to hang out with him and show him how much I care, but I can't. I haven't seen him in almost 2 weeks... Last night while talking to Josh, he had something bad happen to him, I was really worried. And last night I had a bad dream involving what happened to him. I woke up in a panic,unable to go back to sleep for hours. So here goes for another compulsion, when I wake up in the middle of the night to check my computer. Well, I saw Josh came back as soon as I would have been idle, I don't know if it was coincidence, or him just not wanting to talk to me. But anyway around it, I'm really nervous now.

Today I have an essay to write, and if anything else notable happens I will write about it.