Confused
Yesterday changed alot of things.
Yesterday me, the girl i like and some other kids got drunk, I thought it was gunna be fun and all, but what happened wasn't fun at aLL. The girl that I like made out with some other guy, and flirted and was all over Everyone. Its not like im jealous cuz she was drunk and all, but she told me she liked me plenty of times and i told her i liked her. I was more drunk then her and i had more self control. I know she was drunk so she didnt really know what she was doing...but even before we got drunk she seemed like she was ignoring me in a sense, and she was flirting with every guy around her. Even kids that she knows like/liked her right infront of me. I guess not everyones perfect, but the thing is i cant get over her, ive tried before cuz of what she does. I guess she likes to lead me on and then crush me. I dont want her to know how i feel cuz then she might be weirded out and I dont want her to stop liking me cuz i tihnk i like her more then she likes me. So if she stopped likeing me i think it would hurt me more then it would hurt her, sometimes i dont even think she would care. WHY are girls so confusing, and heart crushing. Its also even harder cuz shes still in love with her ex that she broke up with. They went out for like a yearand a half, so shes like stuck on him. But i dont know why she is, Hes sucha bad boyfriend and acts like a DICK to her. They broke up like 8 times before this time. This is the longest they were apart, theyve been apart for about a month so far. But shes still not over him, so its even harder on me. I dont wanna do anything stupid either cuz shes still attached to her ex. Im afraid if i ever asked her out, she would say no and that would change Everything!!! And im afraid she will NEVER get over him so im waiting for nothing. But then she leads me on more then she already has, and it gives me hope that something can happen between us. She still hangs out with her ex, and talks with him, and walks in school with him. Even though hes made her cry soo much already, did dumb things to make her mad at her and upset, she just forgives him the next day. It gets me soo mad. She forgives him about EVERYTHING!!!! I bet if he like hit her, and killed her dad she would forgive him...the next day. She just keeps on getting hurt and crushed, but she keeps going back for more and more. While im here, and all i do is care. The more she gets hurt the more I get mad at her ex and the more i get mad whenever she talks about him or hangs out with him, or tells me she still has feelings for him. So i just sit here n wait, wait for something that will probably never happen.... =(
Yesterday me, the girl i like and some other kids got drunk, I thought it was gunna be fun and all, but what happened wasn't fun at aLL. The girl that I like made out with some other guy, and flirted and was all over Everyone. Its not like im jealous cuz she was drunk and all, but she told me she liked me plenty of times and i told her i liked her. I was more drunk then her and i had more self control. I know she was drunk so she didnt really know what she was doing...but even before we got drunk she seemed like she was ignoring me in a sense, and she was flirting with every guy around her. Even kids that she knows like/liked her right infront of me. I guess not everyones perfect, but the thing is i cant get over her, ive tried before cuz of what she does. I guess she likes to lead me on and then crush me. I dont want her to know how i feel cuz then she might be weirded out and I dont want her to stop liking me cuz i tihnk i like her more then she likes me. So if she stopped likeing me i think it would hurt me more then it would hurt her, sometimes i dont even think she would care. WHY are girls so confusing, and heart crushing. Its also even harder cuz shes still in love with her ex that she broke up with. They went out for like a yearand a half, so shes like stuck on him. But i dont know why she is, Hes sucha bad boyfriend and acts like a DICK to her. They broke up like 8 times before this time. This is the longest they were apart, theyve been apart for about a month so far. But shes still not over him, so its even harder on me. I dont wanna do anything stupid either cuz shes still attached to her ex. Im afraid if i ever asked her out, she would say no and that would change Everything!!! And im afraid she will NEVER get over him so im waiting for nothing. But then she leads me on more then she already has, and it gives me hope that something can happen between us. She still hangs out with her ex, and talks with him, and walks in school with him. Even though hes made her cry soo much already, did dumb things to make her mad at her and upset, she just forgives him the next day. It gets me soo mad. She forgives him about EVERYTHING!!!! I bet if he like hit her, and killed her dad she would forgive him...the next day. She just keeps on getting hurt and crushed, but she keeps going back for more and more. While im here, and all i do is care. The more she gets hurt the more I get mad at her ex and the more i get mad whenever she talks about him or hangs out with him, or tells me she still has feelings for him. So i just sit here n wait, wait for something that will probably never happen.... =(