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i worked hard on the bed but didn't get it finished. i got it framed in and framed the slats. when i started attaching the legs i decided i wanted 4x4s instead of 2x4s and also wanted extra brackets for support. so i guess we'll go back to home depot and grab those tomorrow and i can finish it up. i'm so excited! it's 34" high (from the floor to
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i know you were upset. i felt hurt because i had a lot going on and was really stressed out, and i felt like you disrespected my time by not being willing to make any kind of concrete plan. i waited for you to call for hours that night, and when you finally did it was late and i had picked up studying. i felt like you expected me to be available to you with no notice whenever you decided you had time to hang out and i felt disrespected.
but also understand why you were upset, and i'm not mad anymore, and basically wasn't after that night. the only reason i didn't get in contact with you is cuz you were pretty clear about needing space, and when people ask for space i try to give it to them no questions asked.
you are important to me. we have different communication styles and we're really different people, but i always feel like our friendship is worth the challange of the "language barrier", so to speak. i'm sorry i'm not being a good friend right now, to anyone. i have let everyone down recently and i feel sorry about it but it's my reality right now.
i'm genuinely sorry i didn't get to hang out with you. i want(ed) to. i miss having adventures with you.
i'm not sure what the next step is. it's hard for me to communicate with anyone right now. my phone is expensive and i hardly ever make calls or take calls to just chat. i do use the computer daily. i know it's not the same.
i invited heather, lorrie and mel to come here for sexy spring, which is june 9, 10 and 11. i intended to invite you from the get go but wanted to give you the space you asked for before i extended the invite. heather is coming for sure it looks like, from the late on the 8th till the 12th, lorrie and mel are maybes. i think i'm going to be getting (a) hotel room(s) (number depending on how many people decide to come). i'll be freeing myself up completely to go to sexy spring (www.sexyspring.org, it's on the u of m campus this year) and hang out with homies.
anyway, if you feel like/can come, it would be awesome. i would love to spend time with you.
j, i love you a lot. i feel like we can figure it out. i feel like i want to say more, but i don't know what right now. but i'm sorry too.
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