Mixed feelings
I will always have gastric every time I skip my meals or if I dine late. But somehow, my tummy wasn't doing well since yesterday, even when I was eating properly.
I remembered having my breakfast, lunch, dinner and even supper yesterday! It was after yesterday's breakfast that I felt uneasy with my tummy. The pain prolonged until night (until today as well), but it wasn't as bad as I usually experienced it. Sometimes, even worse - vomiting. But let's skip that part shall we. So last night, at around 9 pm, I sent a random picture to Kimi - I usually send random pictures alternately to Saori, Mika or Aki - and as usual, I had my reply.
Long story short, I learnt that he wasn't feeling well. He had a stomach pain and nearly fainted - thank goodness some friends saw and helped him out. So I asked him to examine himself for me so that I can diagnose him - turned out he wasn't having gastric.
His body weight usually change tremendously from 60 kg to 50 kg to 60 kg, and he's a male. He eats a lot, and do vigorous activities too no, no, not vigorous exercises or workouts, but to eliminate and gain 10 kg that easily....? I suspected that this must have something to do with his blood glucose levels. And yesterday, when he told me that he didn't have a heavy meal during lunch, even when he had just eaten at 8 pm, I know instantly that my assumptions were right - his body is lacking of sugar.
I told him that, and asked him to eat a spoonful of sugar. Then I thought one tablespoon might not be enough because he had an almost-faint experience, so I asked him to eat another. He argued and asked me what low blood sugar has to do with stomach pain. I was starting to feel annoyed because our conversation was a little shaky since the time I asked him to analyse himself for me. I'm not trying to brag, but I'm a medical student, and this is my field of knowledge, so obviously I know what I'm doing. But anyway, I didn't explain about it to him properly, so I guess, partially, it was my fault. (Mental note: I should explain thoroughly to my patients next time) Anyway, I asked him more questions - actually I intended to only ask a little more before asking him to rest, but then he said,
"Please, let me rest."
Shocked was an understatement I guess.
I froze instantly and stared almost too long at the screen before finally replied him. I think this is the first time I was truly piqued by him. It wasn't like I was going to hold him back for a long time. I was about to tell him to rest. I was only asking about his conditions right now. I wasn't even trying to hold our conversation. I mean, I was really worried about him. I asked because I wanted to know. But anyway, I was deeply hurt, mortified, offended and also upset. I wonder, these whole time, everytime we talked or conversed, was I pestering him with my random thoughts and actions even when he said I wasn't?
I know, this post is a little childish and immature, but this is supposed to be a diary right? Although I did say no-too-personal I don't mind if he's my boyfriend and he does this to me, but he's my friend - we're supposed to be my bestfriends? Why?
Oh, I don't know. I feel lame to be upset about something as small as this - like a little girl being upset because she's being abandoned by her friend. I feel embarrassed calling myself a medical student yeah it doesn't have anything to do with it, but people perceive medical students as the elite ones. Anyhow, I'm sorry I ruined your reputation. Maybe it was my first time? I don't know. I should start to get use to this. I mean, my future life would be even harder. It will always be hard for people to receive bad news about their health, and I'm going to be the ones telling them. So I will constantly receive harsh dismissals so might as well get use to it from now, shouldn't I?
I remembered having my breakfast, lunch, dinner and even supper yesterday! It was after yesterday's breakfast that I felt uneasy with my tummy. The pain prolonged until night (until today as well), but it wasn't as bad as I usually experienced it. Sometimes, even worse - vomiting. But let's skip that part shall we. So last night, at around 9 pm, I sent a random picture to Kimi - I usually send random pictures alternately to Saori, Mika or Aki - and as usual, I had my reply.
Long story short, I learnt that he wasn't feeling well. He had a stomach pain and nearly fainted - thank goodness some friends saw and helped him out. So I asked him to examine himself for me so that I can diagnose him - turned out he wasn't having gastric.
His body weight usually change tremendously from 60 kg to 50 kg to 60 kg, and he's a male. He eats a lot, and do vigorous activities too no, no, not vigorous exercises or workouts, but to eliminate and gain 10 kg that easily....? I suspected that this must have something to do with his blood glucose levels. And yesterday, when he told me that he didn't have a heavy meal during lunch, even when he had just eaten at 8 pm, I know instantly that my assumptions were right - his body is lacking of sugar.
I told him that, and asked him to eat a spoonful of sugar. Then I thought one tablespoon might not be enough because he had an almost-faint experience, so I asked him to eat another. He argued and asked me what low blood sugar has to do with stomach pain. I was starting to feel annoyed because our conversation was a little shaky since the time I asked him to analyse himself for me. I'm not trying to brag, but I'm a medical student, and this is my field of knowledge, so obviously I know what I'm doing. But anyway, I didn't explain about it to him properly, so I guess, partially, it was my fault. (Mental note: I should explain thoroughly to my patients next time) Anyway, I asked him more questions - actually I intended to only ask a little more before asking him to rest, but then he said,
"Please, let me rest."
Shocked was an understatement I guess.
I froze instantly and stared almost too long at the screen before finally replied him. I think this is the first time I was truly piqued by him. It wasn't like I was going to hold him back for a long time. I was about to tell him to rest. I was only asking about his conditions right now. I wasn't even trying to hold our conversation. I mean, I was really worried about him. I asked because I wanted to know. But anyway, I was deeply hurt, mortified, offended and also upset. I wonder, these whole time, everytime we talked or conversed, was I pestering him with my random thoughts and actions even when he said I wasn't?
I know, this post is a little childish and immature, but this is supposed to be a diary right? Although I did say no-too-personal I don't mind if he's my boyfriend and he does this to me, but he's my friend - we're supposed to be my bestfriends? Why?
Oh, I don't know. I feel lame to be upset about something as small as this - like a little girl being upset because she's being abandoned by her friend. I feel embarrassed calling myself a medical student yeah it doesn't have anything to do with it, but people perceive medical students as the elite ones. Anyhow, I'm sorry I ruined your reputation. Maybe it was my first time? I don't know. I should start to get use to this. I mean, my future life would be even harder. It will always be hard for people to receive bad news about their health, and I'm going to be the ones telling them. So I will constantly receive harsh dismissals so might as well get use to it from now, shouldn't I?