Flashcards ( Chapter 2 )
Title: Flashcards
Genre: Romance
Rating: G
Length: Chaptered
Pairing: Jaeho
Summary: Yunho’s been acting cold towards Jaejoong…and Jaejoong just couldn’t figure out why…
Chapter 2
Rain began to pour and Yunho just continued to go wherever his feet could take him. There really wasn’t any destination for him, but then he just kept walking. He thought that he had to go as far away as possible from Jaejoong at that moment and he really resisted the urge to turn back. Because if ever he did turn back, he wouldn’t be able to control his feelings any longer. Seeing that Jaejoong was already on the verge of tears awhile ago, Yunho took up a lot of strength to restrain himself from pulling Jaejoong into a comforting embrace and telling him the truth about everything. That’s why he just had to walk away from him. It hurt him so much, Knowing that the reason why Jaejoong feels so miserable was because of him, because he just couldn’t take up the courage and tell him how really felt about him, because he was a coward, because he was afraid.
“ What the hell is wrong with me ? Why am I such a coward ? What am I so afraid of ? “
Yunho just didn’t know what to do anymore, his mind was just so confused, that he didn’t even realize that he had just stopped right in front of Yoochun’s house. He only came back to his senses when he heard the neighbor’s dog bark.
“ Huh ? “ Yunho surveyed the area, and then he noticed the house in front of him. “ Isn’t this Yoochun’s place…what am I doing here ? I must have dozed off and my brain might have involuntarily taken me here. It was starting to get real cold outside and he really had to get out of his wet clothes or else he’d end up sick. He went up the stone steps of his friend’s house then he rang the doorbell. He took a glance at his watch to see if maybe it was too early, but then his watch read that it was already 3 pm.
“ Who is it ? “ Yoochun said, as he opened the door. “ Yunho !? What brings you here ? What do you think you’re doing walking out in the rain. Come in…” Yoochun added as he let his friend inside his warm home. “ I’ll go get you some clothes to change in, you can go take a shower first. Then I’ll make you some hot cocoa after. “
“ Thanks, man! “ Yunho said, as he went straight to the upstairs bath. Yunho had been to Yoochun’s place a lot of times since they’d usually hang out there, so he already knew his way around.
When Yunho had finished taking a warm bath and got himself all dressed up in the dry clothes that Yoochun lent him, He went back downstairs where Yoochun was preparing some hot cocoa in the kitchen.
Yunho made himself comfortable on the sofa in front of the fireplace. After a few minutes, Yoochun came in with the hot cocoa. He gave Yunho his share and took a seat on the couch beside the sofa Yunho was sitting on. Yunho took a little sip and let the warmth overcome him. Yoochun was the first one to strike up a conversation.
“ So…what brings you here ? “ Yoochun said, with the tone of suspicion in his voice.
“ A! No-nothing! I was just taking a walk. “
“ A walk ? out in the rain ? Come on, man. I know you could do better than that. Cooome on, tell me…something must have happened to make you decide to take a walk out in this freezing weather ? “
There was silence between them, until Yunho decided to break it.
“ *sighs* Alright then! But promise me, that whatever I’m about to tell you, will remain just between you and me. You won’t tell a single soul about it, INCLUDING Junsu. Promise ? “
“ promise. “ Yoochun said, as he nods his head.
“ Chun, I’m serious. “
“ What ? I said I promise. “
“ NOT EVEN, SU. Whatever I’m going to tell you, will remain in the four corners of this room
and for OUR ears only. Got it ? “
“ Ya, ya, ya! I got it, I got it…“
“ *exhales deeply* Okay!...here goes…” Yoochun was listening really closely now. “ I…..I’m in love. “
“ What! That’s it ? That’s your big secret ? And here I was thinking that it was some REALLY REALLY big problem. “
“ Chun, what could be a bigger problem, than being in the situation of being in love ? “
“ Oh! Hmm…You gotta point…Anyway, so who is it ? “
“ *exhales deeply* That’s one more problem. “
“ Huh ? Why ? “
“Ummm…the person I’m in love with is…iiiis… “ Yoochun was getting closer and closer to Yunho, in fear that he might not hear the good part.
“ promise you won’t tell ? “ Yunho suddenly added.
“ YES! Now, just tell me who the hell it is. Sheesh!...Hanging here and it’s not a good feeling! “
“ Alright! It’s…It’s J…”
“ JJJJ ? “
“ It’s Jae. There. I said it. You can laugh at me all you want. “ Yunho said, as he lay down on the sofa and covered his now flushed face with the pillow.
“ Jaejoong ? ha! Wow! I-I ummmm…I don’t know what to say…uhhhh…*ehem*
ss-since when ? “ Yoochun’s mind was clouded and he couldn’t really think straight.
“ Ever since. But it got really stronger after Su’s party “ Yunho still kept his face covered by the pillow, his face was really hot, despite the cold weather.
“ Ha! Junsu’s party, huh ? How come ? “
“ I don’t know he was just so amazing at that time, so kind, so caring that I couldn’t help but fall in love with him more “ Yunho sat up from his position.
“ Well…Yiy-ya! He did come up with the plan for Junsu’s party, he worked his ass off just for that. Late nights, going from this hotel to the next to find a good venue, doing phone calls, the invites, planning the program. He did ALMOST everything…So-Soooo I-I ummm…I guess, you could say that. “
“ You think I’m crazy, don’t you ? “
“ N-No! No! I don’t think your crazy! I’m just a bit, uhhhh…SHOCKED…that’s all “ Yoochun was having a hard time choosing his words. “ I just never expected that you liked Jae…But you’ve been so cold towards him these past few days. I mean, if you love him, shouldn’t you be treating him a little more…how do you say this, uhhhh…better? Making him feel more, uhhh…special? “ Yoochun says, with a confused look on his face.
“ That’s just it! I don’t know why…Every time I see him, I want to tell him how lovely he looks, I want to laugh at his jokes, I want to praise him, I want to…*sighs*…But instead of doing that, I…I act like this BIG jerk around him. And now, he’s mad at me for it. “
“ He’s mad at you ? “
“ Yup! Just this morning. “
“ So, that’s why you were walking out in the rain ? Because he was mad at you ? “
“ Exactly. “
“ Okay! Well, what did he say to you ? “
“ He said that if I have a problem with him I should just tell him right in his face so that he wouldn’t rattle his brain trying to figure out the reason behind it all. “
“ Whoa! He said that ? Man, this situation you’re in is…really bad…and I mean…BAD! “
“ I know! And what’s worse, he was crying when he said that. “
“ HE WAS CRYING ? What did you do when he started crying ? “ Yoochun was now standing up from his position.
“ I…walked away…”
“ YOU WALKED…*gives out a deep sigh* ” Yoochun was trying to calm himself down.
He just couldn’t believe his ears. He started pacing the room back and forth, trying to think up of something. “ This is bad…we have to think of someway for you to apologize to him and THEN to tell him how you feel about him. “
“ Wait…TELL HIM ? “
“ WELL DUUH!…I thought you love this guy ? “
“ Yeah. I do “
“ Then there you go…And if you really want this relationship working, you have to let him know how you really feel, you can’t wait for him to figure it out now can you ? “
“ But I CAN’T tell him how I feel…”
“ Why not ? “
“ Because he’s one of my closest friends, and the moment he finds out about how I feel about him, he’s going to hate me even more. “
“ Why would he hate you ? “
“ Because…”
“ Because what ? “
“ Because he doesn’t feel the same way about me. “ Yunho’s voice turned to a whisper. Yoochun noticed this and he sat back down, this time he sat beside Yunho.
“ Yunho…how do you know he doesn’t feel the same way about you ? “
“ I just know, alright! “
“ You see…you couldn’t even give me a straight answer. “ Yoochun stopped for awhile to take a breathe then he continued talking again. “ Yunho…” Yunho kept his face buried in his hands.
“ Yunho look at me! “ Yunho obeyed his friend’s command and leveled his face with Yoochun’s. “ You have to at least try. Okay !? It’s obvious that this feeling you have is eating you up inside little by little. And it’s causing you so much pain.”
“ But what if he doesn’t feel the same way about me ? I mean, I’d rather keep this feeling bottled up inside of me rather than losing him completely. I don’t want to lose him, I…I don’t want him to veer away from me. “ Yunho’s eyes began to water.
“ Then all that’s left to do is for him to decide. If he says yes, then…good for you!...but if he says no, then…at least you know you tried. At least he knows how you feel about him. Tough luck, for him because he just missed a totally great man. Haha!!! “ Yoochun says trying to cheer his friend up, as he laid his arm across Yunho’s shoulders.
“ Thanks, man! “ Yunho said, letting out a small smile.
“ Don’t mention it…hahaha!!! Now…let’s get back to business…We have to make up a plan for you. It’s obvious that he’d still be a bit hot headed, so we can’t do it today. Let’s do it ummmm…the day after tomorrow…“
“ Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Isn’t that too soon ? “
“ Come on, man…it’s now or never…”
Yunho gave himself some time to think about it. But then he decided to do it anyway.
“ Alright *exhales deeply*! Let’s do this! “ Yunho said, with his confidence running high. Then the two of them begun digging up their plan.
The next day, Yunho was quite tired from all that planning the day before. The plan wasn’t quite complete yet, so he forced himself up from bed, took a shower and decided to do some finishing touches. The moment he was done, he checked on it one more time, laid it down on his work table and then he decided to get some fresh air out side for awhile. But then the moment he opened the door, he saw Jaejoong standing right in front of him.
“ J-Jae!? “ Yunho said. Surprised. “ What’s he doing here ? Has he already forgotten about what happened yesterday ? “
“ Hi…ummm…Yunho! Uhhhh….Can I come in ? “
“ Um…Ya, sure! “ Yunho said as he let Jaejoong pass. “ Okay! This is awkward “ Yunho thought to himself. “ So, what brings you here ? “
“ Hey! Umm…before I say anything else…about what happened yesterday, you can uhhhh…forget about it! *forces out a soft giggle* I just wasn’t myself yesterday that’s all. But don’t worry I’m okay now! Hehe! ”
“ Ummm….Ya, sure!...Whatever! “ Yunho says. “ He doesn’t look okay to me “
“ Okay! Good! Now, that we’ve cleared that up, hahaha!!! Back to my main purpose here. Ummm….I’m here to pick up the video of Junsu’s birthday. Remember I told you to make me a copy of it the other day ? “ Forcing out a small smile. But Yunho saw right throught it.
“ He’s forcing himself to look happy “ Yunho thought to himself, but he had to keep his cool.
“ Oh! Yeah yeah!...you see, there’s a little bit of a problem…I uhhhh…I lost the video…” Yunho felt bad for lying to Jaejoong. “ I’m sorry, Jae! But I can’t let you see that video. I JUST can’t.” he thought to himself once more.
Unfortunately for Yunho, Jaejoong was just having a look at his CD collection. And he just so happened to see a CD case entitled in bold capital letters “ JUNSU’S BIRTHDAY “.
“ Oh really ? Then what is this CD here with the title Junsu’s birthday ? “ Jaejoong said, holding the CD up to Yunho’s face.
“ Oh shit! “ Yunho thought.
“ You know, you should really clean up this place. “ Jaejoong said as he places the CD inside the DVD player. “ That way, you wouldn’t have a hard time looking for stuff. “ Jaejoong forces out a soft laugh, then he sits on the couch and presses the play button.
Yunho just stood there, nerve wrecked.
The video was really nice, watching it made him feel like as if here were there at the party again. The first few scenes were all of him, but he didn’t seem to think negatively of it.
“ Wow, you really did great! You captured me on video pretty well, hahahaha!!! “ He turned his attention to Yunho, this time he wasn’t forcing himself, watching the video just made him feel all happy inside.
“ Y-YYeah! Whatever! “ Yunho replied, his voice shaking.
“ Oh my gosh! Here’s the part where Junsu danced with Yoochun…Man, those two we’re so sweet!!! “ Jaejoong excitedly said. He waited for Junsu and Yoochun to be focused on the camera. But then instead of his two friends, the camera was focused on him, and the two we’re already half-way through the dance, and the camera never focused on any one else but him. Jaejoong began to get curious. He waited for the next few scenes to show. And then it hit him.
“ The-these are all…” he hesitated a bit then he continued “ Me. “ turning his attention to Yunho. “ All the clips you took had only ME in it. “ giving emphasis to the ME.
Yunho was speechless. He couldn’t utter even a single word. Jaejoong’s mind was suddenly filled with so much confusion once more.
“ BUT YOU HATE ME. For the past few days you’ve treated me like dirt and…” Jaejoong just didn’t know what to say.
“ I…I, uh, I don’t understand.”
“ I, ummm…I have to go…I have to meet up with someone…so, uhhh…you can just show yourself out. “ and with that said, he walked away once again. He walked a few blocks, then he turned back, he wanted to go back to Jaejoong to him tell him the truth but then he just couldn’t so he faced the other way and moved on, but then he thought he should go back again, but then again he thought maybe not. He battled within himself for a few minutes, thinking of going back to Jaejoong and telling him the truth or to walk away and let his cowardice over power him. Until finally he decided to choose the latter one. To walk away and give in to his fear.
Jaejoong was once again left all alone, distraught and confused. He let himself out, just like what Yunho told him to do and he headed straight home, he just really need to take a rest and to think about things.
That night Yunho returned back to his place, he noticed that Jaejoong left the CD of Junsu’s birthday in the player. Yunho took it out and threw it in the bin. He was just so angry at himself for being such a damn coward. He went up the staircase and into his bedroom, he saw the plan that he and Yoochun thought of the day before lying there in his work table. He thought to himself “ Maybe I shouldn’t go through with it. He already knows anyway.” Yunho was suddenly distracted from his thoughts when his cell phone rang.
“ Hello ? “
“ Yah! Yunho! “
“ Hey! Chun. “ Yunho replied, in a depressed tone.
“ You alright, you sound depressed ? “
“ Ummm…Chun, I think I’m not going to push through with the plan. “
“ WHAT! Why ? “
“ He found out. “
“ Who ? “
“ Jaejoong. “
“ Jaejoong. What did he find out about ? the plan ? “
“ Nope, not the plan. He found out that I liked him.”
“ W-What ? H-How ? W-Why ? “ Yoochun’s voice sounded panicky.
“ He dropped by this afternoon. “
“ Dropped by ? So then, he wasn’t angry at you from what happened yesterday ? “
“ Well he said that he’d forgotten all about it already. But it was kinda obvious that he was forcing himself. “
“ forcing himself, huh. So, how’d he find out about it ? “
“ Well, he saw the video of Junsu’s party. “
“ Su’s party ? what does that have to do with anything ? “
“ Well, you see…that’s because all the scenes I took were…of him. “
“ Oh! that’s why. So, how’d he react to it ? “
“ He started yelling at me saying words like but you hate me. And stuff like that. “
“ Ouuch! Well, anyway, we’ll still push through with the plan. “
“ What !? No way, I already know he doesn’t like me…just by the look on his face awhile ago, it was quite obvious. “
“ Nah! No way! He was just caught off guard that’s all. So, don’t lose hope, man! Tomorrow everything’s going to go smoooooth. “ said Yoochun confidently.
“ *exhales deeply* I just hope you’re right! “
“ Okay then! I gotta go! Good luck tomorrow. “
“ *sighs* Thanks! Bye! “
“ This plan better work!...PLEASE! PLEASE WORK! “ Yunho thought to himself, as he lay down on his bed and let himself fall slowly into slumber.
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