If Only...
Title: If Only…
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG-13
Length: One-shot
Pairing: Yoosu, JaeChun ( Implied )
Author’s Note: Hey~ This a Yoosu fic. Inspired by the song Teardrops on my Guitar by Taylor Swift. I haven’t been writing fics. In quite a while, cause’ I’ve been busy with school. So, sorry if it’s a bit messy…DX…Anyway, Hope you like it…Enjoy! ^_^
Summary: Junsu looks deeper within himself to search for his true feelings for Yoochun.
Will he be able to realize his true feelings for him before someone else takes his best friends heart away from him?
JUNSU’S POV
Chunnie and I have been best friends ever since we were kids. And next to his parents and brother, I’m the one who knows him best. I’ve seen him through good times and through bad times. I’ve seen most of his habits and I know almost all his likes and dislikes. And the same went for him to me. He too, knows almost everything about me. We watched each other grow up to the person we are now.
The two of us were inseparable.
Not until we stepped into out Freshman year of college.
During our first semester, he began crushing on our classmate Kim Jaejoong. And the more he got to know him, the more his feelings for him grew deeper and deeper.
Before, we’d spend almost all our breaks together, just laughing and doing things only the two of us could understand. But there came a time, where it seemed to me that Jaejoong was more of his priority.
At first I didn’t mind what was going on, because we’d still see each other on our way home. But the day he told me that he was serious about Jaejoong, I just felt my heart break into a million pieces. I didn’t know why, but for some reason, I felt so depressed all of a sudden. Chun was only a friend to me, my best friend. So, there was no reason for me to have felt that way.
Every night as I lay in bed, I’d think about the reasons why I’ve been having weird feelings about everything that was going on. After so many sleepless nights, tossing and turning, I still couldn’t figure out any reason why.
Until one day, as I sat down on my living room couch and scanned through some old photo albums of me and Chun together when we were younger...I finally realized it.
I loved him.
As I stared at one particular picture of me and Chun together, I set my heart and my mind that I wanted to fight for him. And I felt so happy that when I heard the phone ring, I jumped out of the sofa excitedly and ran towards the phone.
“ Hello? “
“ SU-AH! “
Hearing his voice on the other line, made my heart race a million times faster. And I couldn’t help but smile.
“ CHUNNIE! What’s up?...You sound really happy! “
“ OF COURSE I AM! He said yes, Su! Jae, said YES!...I confessed to him this afternoon and I asked him if we could start dating. And he said YES! Isn’t this awesome!? “
I could imagine his face full of happiness and delight, as he said those words to me. I felt my heart shatter into pieces. I could still hear him talking excitedly on the other line. But my mind just went blank.
“ Hello?...Hello? Su, are you still there? “
“ Hu-huh?...Yii-yeah~ I’m still here. “
“ So~ What do you think? Isn’t this great or what!? “
“ I think…I think we should celebrate!...My treat! “ as I forced out a soft laugh. In spite the way I felt I fought the urge to breakdown and cry, I tried my hardest to keep my voice from cracking. This was a memorable moment for him and, as his best friend I didn’t want to ruin it.
“ Really!? You’d do that for me!? “
“ Sure~ why not…You finally got things right for you Chun. Aaand~ I’m sure Jaejoong will take good care of you and love you with aaall~ his heart. “ a small tear escaped from my eye. “Just as much as I do. “
“ What? “
“ Huh? “ as I brought my free hand up to my face to wipe the tear that slowly ran down my cheek.
“ You said something in the end...I didn’t hear it. “
“ Ooh~ That…I said, I was happy for you. “
“ Awww~ Thanks man!...Anyway, I got to go. Jae and I have a date tomorrow and I don’t want to be late, so I better sleep early. Well, good night, Su! Take Care! “
“ Yeah~ Night. You too…Chun. “
As I put the phone down, I could no longer control my tears from falling. I wanted to scream. I felt so angry at myself at that moment.
If only…I had realized it sooner.