that's weird...
when i fall asleep late at night - like past 3am - i end up sleeping 10-12 hours.
yet, when i fall asleep earlier - between 0am and 3am - i end up sleeping only 6-8 hours.
that's really weird, because i don't remember that happening before.
perhaps my sleep debt is finally receeding to a manageable level?
or perhaps it's purely depression related, where the extra sleeping time was spent largely rebuilding a destroyed mind.
but if that's the case, what caused the change? i can think of a few possible things.
one being: lack of sunlight, or non-alignment with my internal clock. but really, that should only explain the difference of sleep time i'm seeing right now, and shouldn't be enough to initiate initiate a large change.
two being: payoff from meditation. but really, i haven't meditated enough to see a permanent improvement. i can temporarily relax or control my depression, but it leaves me drained afterwards (especially since i usually end up wasting it on work, which leaves me drained anyway)
three being: simple 'up' in a long pattern. a 'down' will follow eventually.
and the last is something else i'm not willing to disclose yet, as i don't want to sound like i think it's working until i've tried it longer. it's only been 2 weeks, and i only used it sparsely in that time.
tch. typical of me to change the intent of a post half-way through. well, as is the way of a flowing thought.
yet, when i fall asleep earlier - between 0am and 3am - i end up sleeping only 6-8 hours.
that's really weird, because i don't remember that happening before.
perhaps my sleep debt is finally receeding to a manageable level?
or perhaps it's purely depression related, where the extra sleeping time was spent largely rebuilding a destroyed mind.
but if that's the case, what caused the change? i can think of a few possible things.
one being: lack of sunlight, or non-alignment with my internal clock. but really, that should only explain the difference of sleep time i'm seeing right now, and shouldn't be enough to initiate initiate a large change.
two being: payoff from meditation. but really, i haven't meditated enough to see a permanent improvement. i can temporarily relax or control my depression, but it leaves me drained afterwards (especially since i usually end up wasting it on work, which leaves me drained anyway)
three being: simple 'up' in a long pattern. a 'down' will follow eventually.
and the last is something else i'm not willing to disclose yet, as i don't want to sound like i think it's working until i've tried it longer. it's only been 2 weeks, and i only used it sparsely in that time.
tch. typical of me to change the intent of a post half-way through. well, as is the way of a flowing thought.