Jan 28, 2007 00:22
over the next month, i will be trying something new.
i will be practicing a very specific form of art. i will create poems that will exemplify a feeling i desire to remember.
a while ago, i tried to use my memory to remember feelings. i really wanted that to work, but it should be obvious to me by now that it did not work.
it should be obvious to me that i need something to jog my memory, something to trigger my desired feelings. my own internal power is not enough. i need an external influence.
single words won't work for me yet, as they are too small, and don't hold enough meaning. i am not skilled enough with drawing or instrumental music to create something defined enough to remind me. the only option i really have is poetry, something i am positive i am currently capable of.
why did i say magic? art is capable of capturing a feeling. the display of art is capable of summoning the captured feeling within the observers. in this sense, it is like magic.
the result i am aiming for at the end of this coming month is to have a group of spells at my arsenal, which i may use at my will to summon unto myself the feelings captured within.
this is the first step to develop my artistic ability. this is also the first step to calm and control my mind and body.
the natural progression of this that i am aiming for is that in the month following the coming, i will be turning my poems into music.