WOW...never thought this would happen, but it did.........
Hey! to who ever reads this,
Today my brother came home! With 2 asian chicks...one of them is friendly, and the other is i dont know nonfriendly lol. Yep well i'm happy he's home. Because i miss him bunches. Yeah i can't sleep man, im soo tired, but yet i can't sleep. The reason is because of what happened yesterday, i wouldnt even want my worse enemy(not that i have any) to go thru this, it hurts so much. :( The person i love whom i trusted, i thought the world of her, but i dont know about her anymore. I'm in the process of doing whatever is right between us. I'm in love with her, without her i would be alone again...and those ugly thoughts wil come back :(. I'm very afraid of that, i cant be by myself i need her. My friends i dont even know them anymore, the only ones that talk to me are Steph and Cesar and now Max. Yeah but....it's not the same. We have grown apart so much. Yeah i just don't know. I've been with her for almost 2 years thats a long ass time, and to call it quits just like that its hard. She tells me she loves me, that she needs me, but i dont see how she loves me? Why does she go with someone else when she has me...i'm here for her, and yeah. But she loves someone else other than me...thats hard for me to take. She tells me that her and that one person are never gonna happen. What can i do move on???? i dont know, its to hard to just let go...her and that one girl are just friends, but she "loves her" and god it hurts me. I was thinking...she also loves her other friends... so maybe it will be the same thing, but i dont think so, cuz i believe her feelings for the girl are going to her stronger. That leaves me out of the picture. I feel so blue all the time...and now this!!! God...i feel so much like shit! I really really love her but what she did was so low shes been talking to her going out with her behind my back. I guess its my fault cuz i cant go out with her, i'm hardly with her so she seeks for someone whos there cuz im not there. Seriously, i just dont know if i should leave her. Or if should stay and work things out. Its a matter of what she thinks, if she wants to stay with me ill stay but she has to respect my feelings and never lie to me again. If she wants to throw it all away..then i'll leave. I just want her to be happy with or without me. Yeah enough said...i had to let this out cuz i cant talk to anyone..so might as well here. Xanga i dont know my sisters read it and i dont want them to bitch at me. "you're fucken stupid" so yeah. summer vacation is almost over...yeah and its sad how things happen, when you least expect them. :( I will try to enjoy the rest of the summer with those 2 damn books i have to read (how sad..im such a low life) yeah...i don't think i will be going out anymore. Not that i do, but yeah once in a while i do, pero im not anymore. *sigh*...Who ever reads this enjoy your summer, and yeah. goodbye
_Natalia
Today my brother came home! With 2 asian chicks...one of them is friendly, and the other is i dont know nonfriendly lol. Yep well i'm happy he's home. Because i miss him bunches. Yeah i can't sleep man, im soo tired, but yet i can't sleep. The reason is because of what happened yesterday, i wouldnt even want my worse enemy(not that i have any) to go thru this, it hurts so much. :( The person i love whom i trusted, i thought the world of her, but i dont know about her anymore. I'm in the process of doing whatever is right between us. I'm in love with her, without her i would be alone again...and those ugly thoughts wil come back :(. I'm very afraid of that, i cant be by myself i need her. My friends i dont even know them anymore, the only ones that talk to me are Steph and Cesar and now Max. Yeah but....it's not the same. We have grown apart so much. Yeah i just don't know. I've been with her for almost 2 years thats a long ass time, and to call it quits just like that its hard. She tells me she loves me, that she needs me, but i dont see how she loves me? Why does she go with someone else when she has me...i'm here for her, and yeah. But she loves someone else other than me...thats hard for me to take. She tells me that her and that one person are never gonna happen. What can i do move on???? i dont know, its to hard to just let go...her and that one girl are just friends, but she "loves her" and god it hurts me. I was thinking...she also loves her other friends... so maybe it will be the same thing, but i dont think so, cuz i believe her feelings for the girl are going to her stronger. That leaves me out of the picture. I feel so blue all the time...and now this!!! God...i feel so much like shit! I really really love her but what she did was so low shes been talking to her going out with her behind my back. I guess its my fault cuz i cant go out with her, i'm hardly with her so she seeks for someone whos there cuz im not there. Seriously, i just dont know if i should leave her. Or if should stay and work things out. Its a matter of what she thinks, if she wants to stay with me ill stay but she has to respect my feelings and never lie to me again. If she wants to throw it all away..then i'll leave. I just want her to be happy with or without me. Yeah enough said...i had to let this out cuz i cant talk to anyone..so might as well here. Xanga i dont know my sisters read it and i dont want them to bitch at me. "you're fucken stupid" so yeah. summer vacation is almost over...yeah and its sad how things happen, when you least expect them. :( I will try to enjoy the rest of the summer with those 2 damn books i have to read (how sad..im such a low life) yeah...i don't think i will be going out anymore. Not that i do, but yeah once in a while i do, pero im not anymore. *sigh*...Who ever reads this enjoy your summer, and yeah. goodbye
_Natalia