i'm at an impasse.

[hasta_la_byebye]

but it's not the type where i'm forced to make a decision. it's the type where it's up to me whether or not to even make a decision. if i don't then i'll remain insecure about a great many things and i'll never know who is really my friend and who is talking shit behind my back. if i do it then i'll lose a great deal of friends and it will generate even more shit than there is now, but i'll be more secure in knowing who is really there for me and who is holding on to my friendship out of obligation or boredom.

unfortunately, i'm not certain yet of my choices or what they involve.

hence the impasse.