Intolerable agony is intolerable
What should I do with my heart then? Bite it, eat it, cut it, chop it, trample it, crush it into a mess, break it into pieces, smash it into dust? For the agony I feel right now is so intolerable that I've gone insane I think. No I cannot think clearly right now since my head is also a mess. But even if I'm crazy right now I have to scream out loud or else I might have stabbed myself with a knife for real. Oh dear, I want to cry, but I find myself laughing like a mad man right now. So, this is the result of being a mad fangirl after all those years then...
A sudden ending for XxxHolic. I wonder if Clamp rushed it to begin Gate7? Well, knowing Clamp's ability of bending all logic, breaking all the hearts, bringing up the tragedy, I had expected the ending of XxxHolic, and my DouWata, would be nowhere near happy. But even if it might be bad, I still held onto the pale ray of hope. I was not illusive enough to think of a total happy ending, for them to become lovers or something, esp when Holic was published in a Shounen Mag. I just hope for a "half-way" ending like Tsubasa where they keep staying beside each other. It's enough. Every time I look at Doumeki Shizuka, my heart aches. I prayed every day till the day of publication, "please make him happy, please make them happy, please make my wish come true". Hey Clamp, "If you wish for something enough, it'll become true", right? TO HELL WITH IT!! This reality, this ENDING that we got, to me, is THE. MOST. DEPRESSING. THING. EVER. Worse than any kind of nightmares and tragedies I had! Why is it Clamp? Why is it a hundred years later? Why is it that Shizuka has been long GONE? And now the Doumeki that Watanuki is smiling gently with is NOT Shizuka, but his great-grandchild with the same appearance? Why is it that Watanuki hasn't been able to give up on the shop and get over Yuuko's death after all those years? Why hadn't Shizuka used the egg? WHY??? How could the Shizuka I love so much just disappear like that? How can they talk about him like he was a decease now? Why he had DIED before we know it!! And don't fuck with me you made Watanuki reject him even after he's been long gone because he's still waiting for another decease?? It's just CRUEL Clamp!! How can you treat him like that!!! Shizuka... You gave him nothing but ruthlessness... ARGH SHIT!! GIVE ME BACK DOUMEKI SHIZUKA!!! DAMMIT!!!
It's never.. ever a happy ending to me... No matter how you said about it. I really hoped for too much... huh?
I need to clear my head then... It's better if I could cry, but I can't...
And to think that I've been listening to "Romance de Amor" non-stop since...
This is the worst day...
A sudden ending for XxxHolic. I wonder if Clamp rushed it to begin Gate7? Well, knowing Clamp's ability of bending all logic, breaking all the hearts, bringing up the tragedy, I had expected the ending of XxxHolic, and my DouWata, would be nowhere near happy. But even if it might be bad, I still held onto the pale ray of hope. I was not illusive enough to think of a total happy ending, for them to become lovers or something, esp when Holic was published in a Shounen Mag. I just hope for a "half-way" ending like Tsubasa where they keep staying beside each other. It's enough. Every time I look at Doumeki Shizuka, my heart aches. I prayed every day till the day of publication, "please make him happy, please make them happy, please make my wish come true". Hey Clamp, "If you wish for something enough, it'll become true", right? TO HELL WITH IT!! This reality, this ENDING that we got, to me, is THE. MOST. DEPRESSING. THING. EVER. Worse than any kind of nightmares and tragedies I had! Why is it Clamp? Why is it a hundred years later? Why is it that Shizuka has been long GONE? And now the Doumeki that Watanuki is smiling gently with is NOT Shizuka, but his great-grandchild with the same appearance? Why is it that Watanuki hasn't been able to give up on the shop and get over Yuuko's death after all those years? Why hadn't Shizuka used the egg? WHY??? How could the Shizuka I love so much just disappear like that? How can they talk about him like he was a decease now? Why he had DIED before we know it!! And don't fuck with me you made Watanuki reject him even after he's been long gone because he's still waiting for another decease?? It's just CRUEL Clamp!! How can you treat him like that!!! Shizuka... You gave him nothing but ruthlessness... ARGH SHIT!! GIVE ME BACK DOUMEKI SHIZUKA!!! DAMMIT!!!
It's never.. ever a happy ending to me... No matter how you said about it. I really hoped for too much... huh?
I need to clear my head then... It's better if I could cry, but I can't...
And to think that I've been listening to "Romance de Amor" non-stop since...
This is the worst day...