Oh holy hell.
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
11:12 pm
I don't even know what to do anymore. I seirusly hate this relationship. I'm the one always calling him, I'm the one always wanting to hang out, I'm the one who acutally gives a fuck about this relationship. I'm sick of it. And then his stupid friends are like "ughh is that Shannon ont he phone again?" And it pisses me off becuase their not in this relationship and they have no idea how I'm feeling or getting treated. I seirulsy jsut wander what if I backed out of this relationship, and left to further my other options. Maybe I'd acutally get treated better, and acutally feel loved. But I kept resisting becuase I can't leave. I'm to use to him, 6 months is just so long to leave. I hate change, I really do. I don't trust him what so ever. I just do'nt know what to do anymore.
I seriously lost all my old friends. I don't go to school, so I'm never around anyone. I miss the old days when it consisted of me and my girls. I don't have a best friend. I never did not have a best friend. I feel so lonely. I am lonely. My boyfreind isn't close to me, I dont consider him my best freind either. I don't have a best girlfriend. I jsut hate it. I hate being so lonely and miserbale. Nobody understands me.
lmao - god i hate people like that so much
lord give me the strength not to go on a killing spree
6 months huh? woooooahhh he just might break out that ingaugement ring soon.
*sigh* i hate this person so much now and i have never even met her.
im like laughing at all the hate im feeling for her.
.....its a pity how so many people waste the fun years pretending.
what a waste of life.....
and if she really is serious then she got some head problems or somthin cuz that is some of the stupidest shit i have ever read.
Christine - OUT
11:12 pm
I don't even know what to do anymore. I seirusly hate this relationship. I'm the one always calling him, I'm the one always wanting to hang out, I'm the one who acutally gives a fuck about this relationship. I'm sick of it. And then his stupid friends are like "ughh is that Shannon ont he phone again?" And it pisses me off becuase their not in this relationship and they have no idea how I'm feeling or getting treated. I seirulsy jsut wander what if I backed out of this relationship, and left to further my other options. Maybe I'd acutally get treated better, and acutally feel loved. But I kept resisting becuase I can't leave. I'm to use to him, 6 months is just so long to leave. I hate change, I really do. I don't trust him what so ever. I just do'nt know what to do anymore.
I seriously lost all my old friends. I don't go to school, so I'm never around anyone. I miss the old days when it consisted of me and my girls. I don't have a best friend. I never did not have a best friend. I feel so lonely. I am lonely. My boyfreind isn't close to me, I dont consider him my best freind either. I don't have a best girlfriend. I jsut hate it. I hate being so lonely and miserbale. Nobody understands me.
lmao - god i hate people like that so much
lord give me the strength not to go on a killing spree
6 months huh? woooooahhh he just might break out that ingaugement ring soon.
*sigh* i hate this person so much now and i have never even met her.
im like laughing at all the hate im feeling for her.
.....its a pity how so many people waste the fun years pretending.
what a waste of life.....
and if she really is serious then she got some head problems or somthin cuz that is some of the stupidest shit i have ever read.
Christine - OUT