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It was October the last time I did this. TIME FOR AN OOPDAT.
STATE OF SELF
I'm coming off of my hellish-yet-lucrative govt appointment, going into the second week. And...man I feel better. I was actually about to break, I think. Life goals are life goals, and yearly goals are yearly goals, but ow that was a lot of pain. Not being able to talk...anything, inside work because coworkers thrive on rumor mongering and picking the holy hell out of one another. Plus management. Eh anyway it's done for the moment and the binging has made me feel lots and lots better.
I'll be getting another job soon cause I need to eat or something like that to live, but my timing shouldn't be eaten alive like it was before.
STATE OF THE AMI
Hello dynamics, be kinder to her as she has been to you. I'm kicking and whining that so many things happened to her all at once that couldn't be dealt with simply because I wasn't here. And again I stress and re-stress that NO ONE ELSE is at fault and neither am I--that's just how life roll, yo.
BUT getting to the meat of it, I think Ami's been leaking a bit of cynicism and whimsy. Two of her direly-important people are gone, and her view of things are affected. Thinking about Wes and Usagi so much made her current surroundings kind of...dreamlike? She can say she's in camp physically but she really didn't feel she was there. She wanted to be elsewhere, badly. Which was the whole reason she retreated to Wesley's (and Winry's) former workshop for...I think a month? She knows it was a bad thing to do and it'll no doubt make some people worry, but it's one of those "I couldn't help it" situations. Doubly-tough as she's a person used to placing others before herself at most times--the sabbatical was a guilt-ridden one.
And she's not entirely over it, but hey you've got goals, girl. So she's getting back out and about--talking to new folks (or trying to! Yes I fail /o/), and thinking about what she needs to do to get ahead on this whole camp mystery game. Which is, itself, another can of worms. There's no murder. Stephan Debussey is alive and dorkish and somehow the Director still doesn't know this. And now that Ms. Sayre's motives are clearer, Ami's begun thinking about working the problem from that angle. In the sense of assisting the lesser of two evils. But that's a delicate subject best approached with light gloves and deft hands.
On the final side, she's the one that time has affected the most. This will be her third year in barely two months. Ami's watched people come, and she's watched them go. She's seen the place go from a desolate trap full of bickering and zombies and rape to a moderate village full of...symmetry and the occasional rape. It's not hard to say or think that most of the monthly in-bounds have not the slightest inkling that a major conspiracy is afoot, despite most of them coming from an environment where that sort of activity is--if not frequent, then prominent. Even to one who believes in love, justice, and never surrendering, it takes a toll. Ami hasn't given up or surrendered any points, but she has become less enthused about pursuing a conclusion to the chaos. It was inevitable, and she'd rather be doing a lot of other things. Going home and hugging her friends, finding Wesley, finding Soushi and Kishimoto and so many others that have come and gone. But there's still work to be done, despite whatever glum she may be feeling. So it's enough to try and concentrate on that aspect.
... tl;dr, she's hiding her emo in her work. It's not very effective.
STATE OF THE RANMA
Yeah this idiot's just fine. Camp is, to him, another stop on the road. It ain't the Tendo dojo, but it's not bloody horrible. He adapts--that's the kind of retard he is. His is a special zen only disrupted by the day-to-day chaos that he needs to breathe. So obviously there should be some kinda dynamic, right? Meh, not really. Unlike Ami or Shiki, Ranma's pretty timeless. He COULD get frustrated counting the days and weeks, but really there's too much to do. Too many techniques to study. Too many girls to tease. He's not happy as a clam, but it's kinda nice, despite any of his complaints. For the biggest plus, no old man or Mr. Tendo hounding him about his relationship with Akane. Yes, there are meddlers, but they're not nearly as bad yet. Yeah, Ryoga popped up, but as far as he's concerned that's a GOOD THINGTM. It means a steady sparing partner and a way not to lose his edge.
If he had to seriously complain, though, it'd be about Akane trusting him just a little more. It's a present and yes I'm giving it of my own free will so just take it already. He'd like to see their situation improve, too--despite the retarded and fail way he goes about doing it. He also is...suprisingly pleased at how he can get along a little with Kodachi, so long as she isn't rubbing herself on him or trying to feed him food or pull a confession from him.
... Okay so he can get along with her every tenth conversation. THE POINT IS that's cool. Only if a little tricky now since Ryoga "I misinterpret handing a girl chopsticks as A LOVE CONFESSION" Hibiki is here. But hey Ranma'll deal. And hand her that ipod, too.
STATE OF THE SHIKI
My other dynamic man. Shiki...no longer views this whole "murder/kidnap" thing as a hostile deal. I mean. It's tricky, so let's take it from the top:
When he got here, he got a small briefing from Ciel about how this place was all kinds of wrong, and he easily assumed that a Dead Apostle was responsible, given the tremendous amount of Dead/Zombies running about. But this became not the case. The more time passed, the more utter impossibilities he saw. Night patrols turned up no good leads and only left him really tired (and occasionally dead but shhh don't tell the maids).
So of recent, he's been reconsidering and thinking about the how and why of CFUD's existence...and then that whole loudspeaker thing popped up and he kinda said "the hell with it". Not that he's given up--Shiki still feels it's wrong for people to be present against their will. Worse, that Hisui and Kohaku have to be among the inmates.
But...that's about where it ends. The practicalness of it, anyway. He's away from home and familiarity. His biggest concern is Akiha and Arcueid, but...he's starting to look at things in a lighter sense. As in not killing himself over trying to find answers to questions people seemingly stopped asking. He wants to go home, but he's not burning the midnight oil to find a way to do so. Biding his time and enjoying the very weird, very surreal break is the current M.O. True, the Dead still make him nauseated and ill--that's never going to change. Also true that he will take death, much, much more seriously than many of the campers ever will. Those will likely never change. But he's had his chat with Death about this (sort of--DEATH I'M SORRY LET'S FINISH THAT THREAD /o/). He's coming to terms with what he can at camp.
Better, he's finding people he can bond with, even if just a little. For someone who children strayed away from and went out of their way to stay out of his way, that's refreshing. Shiki's an outsider, mince no words about it. He's not supposed to be alive, and mostly living things KNEW this on a primal level, so they kept their distance. So his few friends are that much more precious to him.
I think his biggest objective right now is turning the tables on the twins and serving THEM tea. Yes it'll trouble them but that's fine--life is boring without troubles. /o/
STATE OF SELF
I'm coming off of my hellish-yet-lucrative govt appointment, going into the second week. And...man I feel better. I was actually about to break, I think. Life goals are life goals, and yearly goals are yearly goals, but ow that was a lot of pain. Not being able to talk...anything, inside work because coworkers thrive on rumor mongering and picking the holy hell out of one another. Plus management. Eh anyway it's done for the moment and the binging has made me feel lots and lots better.
I'll be getting another job soon cause I need to eat or something like that to live, but my timing shouldn't be eaten alive like it was before.
STATE OF THE AMI
Hello dynamics, be kinder to her as she has been to you. I'm kicking and whining that so many things happened to her all at once that couldn't be dealt with simply because I wasn't here. And again I stress and re-stress that NO ONE ELSE is at fault and neither am I--that's just how life roll, yo.
BUT getting to the meat of it, I think Ami's been leaking a bit of cynicism and whimsy. Two of her direly-important people are gone, and her view of things are affected. Thinking about Wes and Usagi so much made her current surroundings kind of...dreamlike? She can say she's in camp physically but she really didn't feel she was there. She wanted to be elsewhere, badly. Which was the whole reason she retreated to Wesley's (and Winry's) former workshop for...I think a month? She knows it was a bad thing to do and it'll no doubt make some people worry, but it's one of those "I couldn't help it" situations. Doubly-tough as she's a person used to placing others before herself at most times--the sabbatical was a guilt-ridden one.
And she's not entirely over it, but hey you've got goals, girl. So she's getting back out and about--talking to new folks (or trying to! Yes I fail /o/), and thinking about what she needs to do to get ahead on this whole camp mystery game. Which is, itself, another can of worms. There's no murder. Stephan Debussey is alive and dorkish and somehow the Director still doesn't know this. And now that Ms. Sayre's motives are clearer, Ami's begun thinking about working the problem from that angle. In the sense of assisting the lesser of two evils. But that's a delicate subject best approached with light gloves and deft hands.
On the final side, she's the one that time has affected the most. This will be her third year in barely two months. Ami's watched people come, and she's watched them go. She's seen the place go from a desolate trap full of bickering and zombies and rape to a moderate village full of...symmetry and the occasional rape. It's not hard to say or think that most of the monthly in-bounds have not the slightest inkling that a major conspiracy is afoot, despite most of them coming from an environment where that sort of activity is--if not frequent, then prominent. Even to one who believes in love, justice, and never surrendering, it takes a toll. Ami hasn't given up or surrendered any points, but she has become less enthused about pursuing a conclusion to the chaos. It was inevitable, and she'd rather be doing a lot of other things. Going home and hugging her friends, finding Wesley, finding Soushi and Kishimoto and so many others that have come and gone. But there's still work to be done, despite whatever glum she may be feeling. So it's enough to try and concentrate on that aspect.
... tl;dr, she's hiding her emo in her work. It's not very effective.
STATE OF THE RANMA
Yeah this idiot's just fine. Camp is, to him, another stop on the road. It ain't the Tendo dojo, but it's not bloody horrible. He adapts--that's the kind of retard he is. His is a special zen only disrupted by the day-to-day chaos that he needs to breathe. So obviously there should be some kinda dynamic, right? Meh, not really. Unlike Ami or Shiki, Ranma's pretty timeless. He COULD get frustrated counting the days and weeks, but really there's too much to do. Too many techniques to study. Too many girls to tease. He's not happy as a clam, but it's kinda nice, despite any of his complaints. For the biggest plus, no old man or Mr. Tendo hounding him about his relationship with Akane. Yes, there are meddlers, but they're not nearly as bad yet. Yeah, Ryoga popped up, but as far as he's concerned that's a GOOD THINGTM. It means a steady sparing partner and a way not to lose his edge.
If he had to seriously complain, though, it'd be about Akane trusting him just a little more. It's a present and yes I'm giving it of my own free will so just take it already. He'd like to see their situation improve, too--despite the retarded and fail way he goes about doing it. He also is...suprisingly pleased at how he can get along a little with Kodachi, so long as she isn't rubbing herself on him or trying to feed him food or pull a confession from him.
... Okay so he can get along with her every tenth conversation. THE POINT IS that's cool. Only if a little tricky now since Ryoga "I misinterpret handing a girl chopsticks as A LOVE CONFESSION" Hibiki is here. But hey Ranma'll deal. And hand her that ipod, too.
STATE OF THE SHIKI
My other dynamic man. Shiki...no longer views this whole "murder/kidnap" thing as a hostile deal. I mean. It's tricky, so let's take it from the top:
When he got here, he got a small briefing from Ciel about how this place was all kinds of wrong, and he easily assumed that a Dead Apostle was responsible, given the tremendous amount of Dead/Zombies running about. But this became not the case. The more time passed, the more utter impossibilities he saw. Night patrols turned up no good leads and only left him really tired (and occasionally dead but shhh don't tell the maids).
So of recent, he's been reconsidering and thinking about the how and why of CFUD's existence...and then that whole loudspeaker thing popped up and he kinda said "the hell with it". Not that he's given up--Shiki still feels it's wrong for people to be present against their will. Worse, that Hisui and Kohaku have to be among the inmates.
But...that's about where it ends. The practicalness of it, anyway. He's away from home and familiarity. His biggest concern is Akiha and Arcueid, but...he's starting to look at things in a lighter sense. As in not killing himself over trying to find answers to questions people seemingly stopped asking. He wants to go home, but he's not burning the midnight oil to find a way to do so. Biding his time and enjoying the very weird, very surreal break is the current M.O. True, the Dead still make him nauseated and ill--that's never going to change. Also true that he will take death, much, much more seriously than many of the campers ever will. Those will likely never change. But he's had his chat with Death about this (sort of--DEATH I'M SORRY LET'S FINISH THAT THREAD /o/). He's coming to terms with what he can at camp.
Better, he's finding people he can bond with, even if just a little. For someone who children strayed away from and went out of their way to stay out of his way, that's refreshing. Shiki's an outsider, mince no words about it. He's not supposed to be alive, and mostly living things KNEW this on a primal level, so they kept their distance. So his few friends are that much more precious to him.
I think his biggest objective right now is turning the tables on the twins and serving THEM tea. Yes it'll trouble them but that's fine--life is boring without troubles. /o/