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Ah, my seasonal depression is back. Usually I get depressed around mid january, but because this year is so profoundly different, it was put off until mid Feburary. Or maybe it's not winter that's making me depressed, maybe it's the plethora of other things. I had more nightmares today of the same type, but not quite as horrid. Interestingly, this nightmare provided an explanation for the horror in the first. Ah, what the hell, this latest one wasn't so bad or personal, so I'll tell you what it was about. A new method in technology had developed to resurrect dead people, mainly people who had died natural deaths at old ages. Everyone was so happy that they could be with their grandma and grandpa again. Only I could see the danger in it all: these ressurected cadavers were not people at all but zombies, who wanted the flesh of the living, or something to that extent. I wanted so badly to wake up that (in the dream...though maybe also in real life, I'll never know) I tried to pry my eyelids open, and I woke up...or did I? I could only open my eyes a little, but clearly I could tell I was in my room...and something was wrong with the eye I pryed open. I kept trying to be more concious, and finally, to my surprise, I REALLY woke up, and realized that what i was experiencing before was a dream itself. It was all very fucked up. Both episodes occurred after I had a porn-surfing session, so I won't do that again.

Here's hoping for a better day's sleep tommorrow.