This feeling of emptiness...
When I decided to leave Arashi fandom, I somehow had expected it that I'll lose some friends. It's something I can't deny since many of the friends I made over the years I'm in the fandom are all Arashi fans. Only little of them truly befriended me because they want to know more about me, and not because I'm a subber. I've expected it, but still, it's kind of lonely. I felt like going back to the 2005 again where I first started out in Arashi fandom with no one to talk to and when Arashi files are still hard to find.
Still, I'm so thankful to my best friend in real life who stayed with me all this time. We bonded not because of Arashi, but because we're alike in so many ways, We form our friendship when we I was 12 and she was 11, and it still last until today. Even after 12 years, our friendship still stay strong. She always support me all the way, when I like Prince of Tennis she started learning about it too and got hooked in anime land, when I fell in love with Arashi she willingly going along with me in countless Arashi gatherings just so that I won't be lonely, and now after I move to V6 fandom she's still here beside me without fail, learning about V6 with me too. That makes me so happy.
It's lonely, so damn lonely I felt like crying somehow at night when I truly need someone and I can find no one to talk to just because they have other things to talk about and I'm left behind because I know nothing about those things, but I know I will get over this. I'm strong and I believe in that, and now that I slowly find some friends through my V6 fandom, I will become happy again. I know I will. My best friend is still with me after all.
I don't even know why I'm making such a gloomy entry today but I guess I'm just too tired and too damn lonely. Anyway, to those who still befriended me, I say thank you to you all. May we still become friends even when our interest is not the same again.
Still, I'm so thankful to my best friend in real life who stayed with me all this time. We bonded not because of Arashi, but because we're alike in so many ways, We form our friendship when we I was 12 and she was 11, and it still last until today. Even after 12 years, our friendship still stay strong. She always support me all the way, when I like Prince of Tennis she started learning about it too and got hooked in anime land, when I fell in love with Arashi she willingly going along with me in countless Arashi gatherings just so that I won't be lonely, and now after I move to V6 fandom she's still here beside me without fail, learning about V6 with me too. That makes me so happy.
It's lonely, so damn lonely I felt like crying somehow at night when I truly need someone and I can find no one to talk to just because they have other things to talk about and I'm left behind because I know nothing about those things, but I know I will get over this. I'm strong and I believe in that, and now that I slowly find some friends through my V6 fandom, I will become happy again. I know I will. My best friend is still with me after all.
I don't even know why I'm making such a gloomy entry today but I guess I'm just too tired and too damn lonely. Anyway, to those who still befriended me, I say thank you to you all. May we still become friends even when our interest is not the same again.