"Sayonara...~"
Thanks to those who commented on the previous post. Thinking about it now, miroku_houshi & doped_up_joker were right. I should consider my mother, and her feelings. I'm sure she's just as lonely, and needs someone to love. BUT the only reason I understand this now, is because I never knew how my dad was. According to my aunt and her boyfriend, my father was a two-timing bastard. He slept with other girls and came and go when he pleased. He only stayed around to sleep, eat and have a secure place to live. Basically, he was a freeloader.
But then that leaves me in a very fickle position..
Should I hate my father? I mean, it's understandable if I do now but, for some reason, I can't find myself to hate him. I confide in him with everything that goes on in my life, and now...I mean, I don't want him to be so mean with my mom, because earlier he told me how he only cares about myself and my brother. But I guess it's reasonable. *Siigh* So I promised my mother that I would go with her to visit the guy and see if we get along. That way, I could judge from there my 'feelings' for this man who's after my mother's heart. I hope he isn't going to use her..from the way they told me about him, wanting his nephew (who's my aunt's boyfriend) to buy my mom, myself and my brother plane tickets to the Dominican Republic, in some resort, to spend two weeks with him. and he's loaded >__> or so they tell me, but bleh. *Siigh* it's already december..
which means..
MIDTERMS IS COMING ><;;; ohhh how I loathe thee, January.
Anyways, I didn't go to school today ee; because last night I got into an argument with my mom, which ended with me sleeping in the living room. *Siigh* mommy was lonely that night, she told me..ah well. ^_^ I downloaded new songs, and deleted some for space. I get out early tomorrow and ugh, I have to make up a test plus a homework and ugh..well, I got a new icon ^_^ it's about time I had another Sakura icon. fwee~ Oh, btw, I won't be updating my fics for awhile. My muse left when all this mess started happening, so now I have to find her. She's probably with Mony's cow somewhere..floating in some hot air balloon.