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Haru-
Author: Haruna
Genre: SMUT!!! (hint of angst and fluff)
Pairing: TaNaka
Rating: R / NC-17
Disclaimer: You know howI should be called if I owned them....
Warnings: sex, sex, sex XD you asked me smut! >/////////////////////////<
1. Song - I'm not an addict ( K's Choice)
Breath it in and breath it out
and pass it on it's almost out
We're so creative and so much more
We're high above, but on the floor
Restlessly breathing against each other's mouth, as they kissed deeply again, sharing the same air, the same taste, the same love.
The taller laying on his back, pushed down on the floor as they wanted it so badly.
It's not a habit, it's cool
I feel alive
If you don't have it your on
the other side
Kisses weren't enough... Even though the older's mind filled with thoughts, he didn't minded, he wanted it to happen. It wasn't an habit, it was love. Or that was what he was trying to convince himself with... He needed to believe it to feel their love still alive.
The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot
“Don't mind it” said to himself the taller young men, and the rapper's hands run on his chest caressing him hungrily. He felt wherever Koki was touching burnt.
He felt like touching the sky, as the other trailed hot kisses on his bare chest.
It's not a habit, it's cool
I feel alive
If you don't have it your on
the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
Desires grows up as the touch becomes more intimate, as the beat boxer feels the other so intensively inside of him. Strong and slow thrusts... He's going insane yet, they both are... They're insanely addicted.
“I'm not an addict” he keeps to repeat in his minds.
It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
Oh, nothing means a thing to me
As they consumed each other with their passion, the thin guy was left alone... Naked on the floor.
It felt so lonely so cold. It wasn't an habit, it was love... Or else for the older guy it was.
He kept on convincing himself it was love, for them both.
Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me I'm falling
And I'm falling...
In his heart he wanted to be released, he wanted Koki to released him from those heavy chains he put on him. Yuichi wanted to be free from this insane love.
He was falling into the darkness, trying to convince himself it wasn't just an habit.
The more he tried, the more he fell.
It is not a habit, it is cool
I feel alive I feel.......
It is not a habit, it is cool
I feel alive
He kept on repeating those words in his mind every time they were having sex. Yet he realized it wasn't love, but he couldn't let go. He fell so deeply in the shadows of his heart, he'll fall into pieces if he'll admit the raw reality.
“I feel good, I feel alive. It's not an addict” the same words echoed in his mind, shutting his reason up.
“I'm not an addict, I'm not an addict, I'm not an addict”.
He was still convincing himself.
2. Citation- I know who you are. Not the you who changes masks for the world, every hour of the day, depending on the audience.
I know the you behind that.
The rapper stepped silently in the house, it was almost 4 in the morning. It became a habit for Koki, club all night and come home late. He knew his precious lover will be there waiting awake for him.
It was wrong, he knew it, but he needed to keep that facade, or else his world will fall into pieces.
In the last years Koki built a fake personality, fake masks, a fake himself. Someone who paparazzi and fans could attack and idolize. He needed to hide his true self, he needed to preserve who he truly was. But it became harder and harder to separate the two persons who were living inside of the rapper: the idol and the kindhearted guy.
The kind guy was showing up only around one special person, Yuichi.
He was the only one who had always recognized the real Koki, their souls were connected, and only Yuichi was able to keep the real Koki there, with them.
“you're home...” Murmured a sleepy voice, as Koki stepped in their bedroom.
“Tadaima...” whispered the shorter guy and sat on the bed, on Maru's side.
“Okaeri...” a bright and melancholic smile welcomed Koki as every morning.
It became their habit... A bitter and husky good morning kiss, tasting of alcohol and smoke.
Yuichi knew how hard it became for Koki not to go crazy, trying so hard to act the person people wanted him to be. Sometimes it drove the rapper insane, breaking Maru's heart.
They both knew it will bring them over the edge of insanity, but they were top idol, they needed to lie.
Koki leant on the other and pulled Yuichi into a sweet deep kiss. It didn't take longer, that the kisses became two, three, four. It quickly turned into something more, arms wrapped around each other's body, clothes tossed somewhere in the room, filling the yet humid air with soft moans.
Two lovers were calling their names, intimately bonded, declaring their pure love to each other.
Desire grew high between them and they lived it, drop by drop, together, as always.
Yuichi knew who Koki truly was. He could tell how kind he was, how mean the lies on tabloids were. Nobody will never love him so daringly as Koki does.
“You're saving me again Yuichi.” Murmured Koki resting his forehead against Yuichi's.
The beat boxer curled in the other's warm hug and kissed softly the rapper's lips, breathing the same air as him.
“That's because I know who you truly are...”
He only knew who the real Koki was.
3. Phrase - Waking up at birds singing...
Did you know that small things are the most treasured life?
As you open your eyes, feeling the warmth of the rising sun on your bare skin. A sweet and daring dead weight on your chest, moving along with your breaths. The same weight is hugging you tight, his calm and serene sleeping face, his soft lips, parted in a tender smile. As you move a pair of annoying wisps from his eyes, and you stare at him.
You remember the previous night, how sexy he could be, riding you. How exciting his touch is, how lusty he can plead you. How much you wanted him.
And you loved him. Daringly, passionately, lovingly.
You remember you counted the times he said he loves you, you remember how his heart was racing even though it wasn't his first time. You love it, how he still gets nervous around you, and the same happens to you.
You just love to wake up to birds singing with the other half of your soul, cuddled into your embrace. Your heart melts as he wakes up and as the first thing he does is smile at you, still half asleep, whispering “Aishiteru”.
This is what he calls happiness.
PART II