[Drabble] Killing me softly
Author: Haruna
Genre: Angst
Pairing: TaNaka
Rating: pg
Summary: sometimes it's better to not love.
Disclaimer: yes I'm depressed, yes I'm angry, yes right now I HATE KAME. If you got a problem with this don't even think of read. I warned you, so... TO DA LEFT! That's the exit. Or simply read something else.
I see your eyes widen and light up in happiness as you open his present.
Did I fail so badly? Though I thought about this so much, I’ve spent night and days thinking about it, about what will make you happy… But, once again, I’m the looser. I didn’t want to win, I wanted you to choose me. I wanted to still occupy that special spot in your heart, but I think things changed. I guess that wall between us became thicker and thicker. I was happy when we got to work together again, I was happy that your present made us close again, you agreed on hanging out with me and some Juniors… It was fun wasn’t it?
Though… I’m not good enough I suppose… I’m the looser here anyway, the scary cat, the coward. Maybe that’s why you don’t like me anymore… But when I try harder, you say to not overwork myself… To not try too hard cause I’m ok the way I am. I don’t want to just be okay.
Tell me, what should I do to make you see me? To make you see I’m always looking at you and only you… To make you see I still exist… I want to be the one of those two people you’d give your life for again… I want you to choose me. I just want you. The person who’s killing me this softly, that’s who I want.
I’ll just keep this fake smile for the sake of this whole façade, cause you’re too deaf to hear my heart
smashing into pieces.
Genre: Angst
Pairing: TaNaka
Rating: pg
Summary: sometimes it's better to not love.
Disclaimer: yes I'm depressed, yes I'm angry, yes right now I HATE KAME. If you got a problem with this don't even think of read. I warned you, so... TO DA LEFT! That's the exit. Or simply read something else.
I see your eyes widen and light up in happiness as you open his present.
Did I fail so badly? Though I thought about this so much, I’ve spent night and days thinking about it, about what will make you happy… But, once again, I’m the looser. I didn’t want to win, I wanted you to choose me. I wanted to still occupy that special spot in your heart, but I think things changed. I guess that wall between us became thicker and thicker. I was happy when we got to work together again, I was happy that your present made us close again, you agreed on hanging out with me and some Juniors… It was fun wasn’t it?
Though… I’m not good enough I suppose… I’m the looser here anyway, the scary cat, the coward. Maybe that’s why you don’t like me anymore… But when I try harder, you say to not overwork myself… To not try too hard cause I’m ok the way I am. I don’t want to just be okay.
Tell me, what should I do to make you see me? To make you see I’m always looking at you and only you… To make you see I still exist… I want to be the one of those two people you’d give your life for again… I want you to choose me. I just want you. The person who’s killing me this softly, that’s who I want.
I’ll just keep this fake smile for the sake of this whole façade, cause you’re too deaf to hear my heart
smashing into pieces.