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[harukatomoe]

yeah so this is what is going on
another doctors apointment i thought would be easy
nice, just an first time, tell me everything i already know
for 50 bucks.. visit

come to find out, this doc is the shit
he's on his ball
and well i might have an endoscopy done
in the dr. office during the check up.

and the survey says:

Tumors or polyps in the sunuses
causing my ear to hurt like a banchee screams
to be blocked and no hearing
my sinuses to dance like the wolves
my tonsils to play hockey
and my jaw being completely soar
and the bone being ripped on by
a metastisised tumor.

WHAT FUN!

this is the worst that can happen, and i'm prepared for it.
hopefully, it's just small, and removeable-a nd i'm unconscious
for the whole thing . i'll even get an IV
no cathedar though,

i dont know. i'm just really hesitant to cause myself anymore
pain that what i'm doing right now.
i hurt, i do. even though no one can see it.. well, the people i live with
are starting to see it more and more.. especially int he morning, and
the all night hacking..
but, they still see the smile on my face
i hope taht the smile stays there and
everyone, including myself
is fooled.