A difficult month, a difficult year
Well my uncle passed away on friday, unexpectedly in a failed surgery attempt for his brain cancer. Just as I had told my ex, it has finally come to pass. It has been a very sad time for my family, and very difficult for me as well with all of my things due for my classes and finals coming up. I had a giant notebook due for my massage therapy class, but I didn't go the next day, anything I wanted to work on-- I just didn't have the will to do it hearing the news right beforehand..but even if I did it would never have gotten done in time. With my grandmother's passing during christmas/newyears time, it's barely been even 3 months. Everybody is sad right now.
Another sad event is that during this time I missed a very important date with someone who actually takes finding someone very seriously. I feel so embarrassed at this. Damn depression!
My car also had a flat tire today in addition to me finding out there's a leak in the steering fluid system. *sigh* it's been terrible having all these things happen at the same time.
I hope we all get through this.. some how.
Another thing I'm worried about is I think a more recent friend I've made has been flirting with me. Normally this wouldn't bother me, but one of my other girlfriends likes him and has been trying to date him. It's not that I don't find him attractive-or that I would even mind dating him-he's cute and he's immensely fun to be around- but I don't want to cause trouble for anyone. They've already had enough of that. I feel guilty because I kind of am crushing on him, I don't mean to, it's just we share so many interests and it's been so neat. We like the same anime, games, even stories based on female elfen characters (he's an awesome story writer)- and he's sweet and sentimental. It's quite hard not to flirt, especially when I haven't gone out in several weeks. I sort of dropped the ball in that respect. Maybe I'm just taking it too seriously and it isn't what I'm thinking...... still...he's a really nice person. It's tough to like someone but know your hands are tied.
Another sad event is that during this time I missed a very important date with someone who actually takes finding someone very seriously. I feel so embarrassed at this. Damn depression!
My car also had a flat tire today in addition to me finding out there's a leak in the steering fluid system. *sigh* it's been terrible having all these things happen at the same time.
I hope we all get through this.. some how.
Another thing I'm worried about is I think a more recent friend I've made has been flirting with me. Normally this wouldn't bother me, but one of my other girlfriends likes him and has been trying to date him. It's not that I don't find him attractive-or that I would even mind dating him-he's cute and he's immensely fun to be around- but I don't want to cause trouble for anyone. They've already had enough of that. I feel guilty because I kind of am crushing on him, I don't mean to, it's just we share so many interests and it's been so neat. We like the same anime, games, even stories based on female elfen characters (he's an awesome story writer)- and he's sweet and sentimental. It's quite hard not to flirt, especially when I haven't gone out in several weeks. I sort of dropped the ball in that respect. Maybe I'm just taking it too seriously and it isn't what I'm thinking...... still...he's a really nice person. It's tough to like someone but know your hands are tied.