Why I'm so social awkward??
You can skip this RL rambles if you choose to.
I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. If I'm social awkward on LJ, you can picture how that must be in RL. True is, in RL, I usually have my friends to back me up: as in, my friend's are either people I've known for over a decade (and that's not much weirdness we can hide from them at this point) or friend's friends who end up being kind of my friends too. That's the ones that have been around more often AND the ones I feel more awkward about. (come to think of it, my network on LJ isn't that much different...)
I'm fighting this though. Just going out for a coffee with a new friend who I haven't manage to scare yet by being geeky and weirdly hyper. Because he actually called to ask if I was doing anything! My first instinct was LIE!LIE! STAY HOME AND FINISH WATCHING THE BIG BANG THEORY! But my psychologist will be proud that I'm going... So yay me! =P
Also, that's how I am at work. Overheard my bosses talking the other day about me, and my future in the company. I know I've been trying to climb those steps (and I'm getting pretty good at making myself look normal at work place I should think about acting as a tertiary career), but I really don't know what I'm doing there either... I just know I'm doing... something... =P
I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. If I'm social awkward on LJ, you can picture how that must be in RL. True is, in RL, I usually have my friends to back me up: as in, my friend's are either people I've known for over a decade (and that's not much weirdness we can hide from them at this point) or friend's friends who end up being kind of my friends too. That's the ones that have been around more often AND the ones I feel more awkward about. (come to think of it, my network on LJ isn't that much different...)
I'm fighting this though. Just going out for a coffee with a new friend who I haven't manage to scare yet by being geeky and weirdly hyper. Because he actually called to ask if I was doing anything! My first instinct was LIE!LIE! STAY HOME AND FINISH WATCHING THE BIG BANG THEORY! But my psychologist will be proud that I'm going... So yay me! =P
Also, that's how I am at work. Overheard my bosses talking the other day about me, and my future in the company. I know I've been trying to climb those steps (and I'm getting pretty good at making myself look normal at work place I should think about acting as a tertiary career), but I really don't know what I'm doing there either... I just know I'm doing... something... =P