Wake up Sleeping UGLY moment!
Most girls or women know every Monday is the start of a new diet or resolution day; Yes? All the damage done during the weekend and that you screwed up last week right? Right. Got on the scale thing kept screaming at me. _YOU GAINED 3 KILOS° I replied °yeah from the LAST TIME I WAS ON IT° When I am on a °I dont give a fuck what I eat mode° I tend to stay away from the scale as if I didn't understand by just looking at myself in the mirror -the horror.
The more I read about other people s woes with weight, the more I tell myself, °Do not TORTURE YOURSELF, just watch what you eat instead of pushing things.° I have this weird thing, I tend to use my time off to have cook offs meaning I am an amateur cook. Its one thing that I can honestly say I can almost cook anything shown to me or any ideas given to me. I can do it! Call natural talent but its my gift! This gift comes with a curse! EATING WHAT I COOK; Gee I have to taste, so from curry to coconut beigne, I will cook and EAT!
My husband on the other hand, do not gain weight as he eats 3 times more than I ever could. Yesterday I made a Paella. My mother in law s recipe- Verbal! So I decided I got all ingredients its what I will make. I made Paella to feed 10 people while we are only 2 with Pongo who also eats for 2. IN making this Paella I decided, I will improve the recipe, I talk to Vince about it, and said ° I want it to be WHOLE, not each ingredient tasting weird° I want all the juices of the seafood, the chicken, the chorizo to go inside the rice.. in this al Dente goooooooeeeness.. Imagine, the care, the attention, the LOVE! Its true it my expression of love! When I saw the paella pan, I said , We will be eating this for DAYS!, I do not measure things! I throw them based on feelings. SO I do not really know for how many people I am cooking, just an estimation of how much we can eat. Confession: I took two plates! The dog ate one, Vince ate 4 times!!!!!!!!!!! Then tell me, °Dang, Its my mom s recipe?°
Its kinda sweet though he confessed to me usually men loves their mothers cooking, although his mom is great at many things, he said °babe she cant cook like you do° Hell thats a big fish to fry if you know what I mean, she is very good with pies and roasts and will experiment with different food but I have this SOUL THING. he is even trying to convince me to change careers. I better get a gastric band before I take up cooking as a job, otherwise I will be a house.
Yeah; such a long entry just to say I am putting myself back on the diet! I do workout otherwise no chair would FIT me in! I definitely cutting back on making chili, cornbread, and people pleasing food. Its true I am a crowd pleaser, I cant help myself. I Love to have guests over to feed them. Psychologically, this is the way I express myself or my emotions as i am not very touchy-feely person so its my way to say ° I love you° Here is some green curry or Caribbean rolls. I cant take a friend in my arms and tell them °I am glad you are around and I love you so much° including a big hug. It will never happen. I Just say °so BBQ this weekend? I will make the potato salad you like so much, or I will make mini cupcakes!°
So Tamara is back on a diet. I promise to say when I cheat or being naughty lol
The more I read about other people s woes with weight, the more I tell myself, °Do not TORTURE YOURSELF, just watch what you eat instead of pushing things.° I have this weird thing, I tend to use my time off to have cook offs meaning I am an amateur cook. Its one thing that I can honestly say I can almost cook anything shown to me or any ideas given to me. I can do it! Call natural talent but its my gift! This gift comes with a curse! EATING WHAT I COOK; Gee I have to taste, so from curry to coconut beigne, I will cook and EAT!
My husband on the other hand, do not gain weight as he eats 3 times more than I ever could. Yesterday I made a Paella. My mother in law s recipe- Verbal! So I decided I got all ingredients its what I will make. I made Paella to feed 10 people while we are only 2 with Pongo who also eats for 2. IN making this Paella I decided, I will improve the recipe, I talk to Vince about it, and said ° I want it to be WHOLE, not each ingredient tasting weird° I want all the juices of the seafood, the chicken, the chorizo to go inside the rice.. in this al Dente goooooooeeeness.. Imagine, the care, the attention, the LOVE! Its true it my expression of love! When I saw the paella pan, I said , We will be eating this for DAYS!, I do not measure things! I throw them based on feelings. SO I do not really know for how many people I am cooking, just an estimation of how much we can eat. Confession: I took two plates! The dog ate one, Vince ate 4 times!!!!!!!!!!! Then tell me, °Dang, Its my mom s recipe?°
Its kinda sweet though he confessed to me usually men loves their mothers cooking, although his mom is great at many things, he said °babe she cant cook like you do° Hell thats a big fish to fry if you know what I mean, she is very good with pies and roasts and will experiment with different food but I have this SOUL THING. he is even trying to convince me to change careers. I better get a gastric band before I take up cooking as a job, otherwise I will be a house.
Yeah; such a long entry just to say I am putting myself back on the diet! I do workout otherwise no chair would FIT me in! I definitely cutting back on making chili, cornbread, and people pleasing food. Its true I am a crowd pleaser, I cant help myself. I Love to have guests over to feed them. Psychologically, this is the way I express myself or my emotions as i am not very touchy-feely person so its my way to say ° I love you° Here is some green curry or Caribbean rolls. I cant take a friend in my arms and tell them °I am glad you are around and I love you so much° including a big hug. It will never happen. I Just say °so BBQ this weekend? I will make the potato salad you like so much, or I will make mini cupcakes!°
So Tamara is back on a diet. I promise to say when I cheat or being naughty lol