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ok so i could have sworn that i posted on saturday....i don't know why it's not on here, but it isn't....
the past week really sucked to summerize it all....i don't think that i am ready to go back to school yet, but i don't really want to be at home either....i am sorry if i was a real jerk to anyone, when i am upset about big stuff, the little things just blow my top off....that was a weird way to put it...
so yesterday i spent like 5hours w/ christopher robbins...almost the entire time we talked about what happened at camp...i really disliked it...i mean i am glad that they had a good time, but i so badly wanted to be there and hearing her talk about it just made it worse...i just sat there in almost a comotose state...i've been kinda in one of those for a while; i am like a plexi-glass door, i see things coming, and they run into me but they don't visibly break me....i don't think that that analogy is right but whatever...
anyways....so tonite i had a mtg for work and it looks like i'll be working thurs.nights and sat. days...blah but yeah...$ but means i'll have to miss ALL of the bible studies that are on that nite...
i don't know how much more i can handle before i break, i am pretty good right now, but i don't know how long it'll last..
isn't it great when someone doesn't even have 5minutes of their time to talk to you?
so tonite guess what i did? me, mel, ktsue and jackie and i were supposed to hang out, and guess who else came along? angela.....it was definately ACKWARD. i have been thinking about her lately and it was nice to see her, except she acted like she hadn't completely ignored us the past 3 years (at least me and mel)
so we leave the putt-putt golf place and they get in their cars (i had left my car @ walmart and rode w/ mel) and we were gonna go run around walmart together; we start heading to the one where my car was and they go the opposite direction. me and mel figured that they were just gonna try and cut us off, but no they ditched us; no phone call or nothing. i should have saw it coming, those 3 had been "together" the entire night and they had been leaving us out anyways...it hurt but at the same time it didn't...
i saw "bossom" and angela turner @ walmart and i was soooo pumped!!! i seriously haven't seen her like since graduation 2 years ago! i miss that girl!
i miss bekah; i miss everyone;i want to just gather everyone and not let them leave until i come out of this coma
so i think i am gonna go downstairs and do some reading/prayin'.....no need for alarm anyone
the rest of this week looks like this, not that you care:
~weds- go see heather and my "arranged husband" ( but not for sure since heather hasn't called me back yet) or go practice w/ the girls highschool bball team or go to jr. high again or go see a movie w/ ruthie
~thurs- work from 9-5...then i don't know what...watch ER that's for sure...probably start packing since i am moving stuff in on fri
~friday- move crap in, pick up my books;hang out w/katie tracy and melissa; go to boys game w/ mel and maybe ktsue; maybe go to the scary movie party(ps katrina what's going on there?)
~sat- move more crap in, try and organize it a little maybe; go midnite bowling?
ok so that probably was the most boring post for ya'll but whatever...
the past week really sucked to summerize it all....i don't think that i am ready to go back to school yet, but i don't really want to be at home either....i am sorry if i was a real jerk to anyone, when i am upset about big stuff, the little things just blow my top off....that was a weird way to put it...
so yesterday i spent like 5hours w/ christopher robbins...almost the entire time we talked about what happened at camp...i really disliked it...i mean i am glad that they had a good time, but i so badly wanted to be there and hearing her talk about it just made it worse...i just sat there in almost a comotose state...i've been kinda in one of those for a while; i am like a plexi-glass door, i see things coming, and they run into me but they don't visibly break me....i don't think that that analogy is right but whatever...
anyways....so tonite i had a mtg for work and it looks like i'll be working thurs.nights and sat. days...blah but yeah...$ but means i'll have to miss ALL of the bible studies that are on that nite...
i don't know how much more i can handle before i break, i am pretty good right now, but i don't know how long it'll last..
isn't it great when someone doesn't even have 5minutes of their time to talk to you?
so tonite guess what i did? me, mel, ktsue and jackie and i were supposed to hang out, and guess who else came along? angela.....it was definately ACKWARD. i have been thinking about her lately and it was nice to see her, except she acted like she hadn't completely ignored us the past 3 years (at least me and mel)
so we leave the putt-putt golf place and they get in their cars (i had left my car @ walmart and rode w/ mel) and we were gonna go run around walmart together; we start heading to the one where my car was and they go the opposite direction. me and mel figured that they were just gonna try and cut us off, but no they ditched us; no phone call or nothing. i should have saw it coming, those 3 had been "together" the entire night and they had been leaving us out anyways...it hurt but at the same time it didn't...
i saw "bossom" and angela turner @ walmart and i was soooo pumped!!! i seriously haven't seen her like since graduation 2 years ago! i miss that girl!
i miss bekah; i miss everyone;i want to just gather everyone and not let them leave until i come out of this coma
so i think i am gonna go downstairs and do some reading/prayin'.....no need for alarm anyone
the rest of this week looks like this, not that you care:
~weds- go see heather and my "arranged husband" ( but not for sure since heather hasn't called me back yet) or go practice w/ the girls highschool bball team or go to jr. high again or go see a movie w/ ruthie
~thurs- work from 9-5...then i don't know what...watch ER that's for sure...probably start packing since i am moving stuff in on fri
~friday- move crap in, pick up my books;hang out w/katie tracy and melissa; go to boys game w/ mel and maybe ktsue; maybe go to the scary movie party(ps katrina what's going on there?)
~sat- move more crap in, try and organize it a little maybe; go midnite bowling?
ok so that probably was the most boring post for ya'll but whatever...