so why'd you come home to this sleepless town?
Studies show that there is no better way to get me to come crawling back to Livejournal than for someone to do a survey. I can't resist.
Thanks, Jerk:
Ever Been Called...
Dumb?: yes
Retarded?: yes
Ugly?: yes
Hot?: by dumb people
Fat?: yes
Anorexic?: hahahahaha no one could ever believe that
A waste of space?: hopefully not seriously
Useless?: i think
Smelly?: umm yes like two days ago, AHEM
A Slut?: yes
Beautiful?: yes, by dumb people
Smart?: uh just by my parents?
Quiet?: yes
Boring?: yes
A Bitch?: yes
Rebel?: not for real?
Conceited?: hahaha yes. some people even hate me for it. remember when...?
Currently
What are you wearing?: let's see... a light blue tank top under a hot pink sweatshirt with a waistband thing that has like, a billion colors, and a blue zip-up sweater, and the longest scarf in the universe, and jeans... and a pink belt, and pink shoes with bows... oh yeah and underwear and a bra, haha.
Who are you talking to?: jerk, and i'm talking to steve but he's not talking back
How is the weather?: brrr
What are you listening to?: Counting Crows
What/Who are you thinking about?: Steve and how he sucks online
What are you looking forward to?: mmm summer <3
What are you dreading?: ...summer. haha. or work on saturday. GAHHHH i hate outdoor jobs.
How are you feeling?: my tummy hurts. booo.
How is your hair?: well you asked at a good time, survey! it's actually in an "updo," haha from the prom fashion show tonight. so it's all in loops and curls and stuff. it's totally pretty and i'm trying to leave it in but it's hurting like a bitch, so i don't think i can stand it.
What are you annoyed by?: my tummy. and my fatness. and people.
Emotions
What emotion do you feel the most?: uh i think recently i'd say... satisfied, maybe. most of the time. that's why i cry ALWAYS.
What emotion is the best?: love
Worst?: loneliness/worthlessness
What songs make you cry?: hahaha could I pick just one? I can't listen to Wicked at all anymore because it all makes me cry, specifically Defying Gravity and For Good and I'm Not That Girl and uh, all of them. And some songs from Les Mis always make me cry. And Goodbye Love from RENT. And a couple Ben Folds songs... I guess The Luckiest and We're Still Fighting It and umm... okay forget this. Nine hundred thousand million.
What movies make you cry?: The Notebook, Eternal Sunshine, Garden State, Down to You, Here on Earth (though I haven't watched it in years because it used to make me cry too much), and um, everything remotely cute.
What always cheers you up?: Steve. Umm dressing up usually helps. Haha. Usually singing opera, unless that's the reason I'm upset. And Fat always makes me happy. Oh, and a hearty serving of cheese-on-a-plate. Mmmm.
What makes you madder than anything?: People. Umm, unfairness.
What hurts you the most?: Seeing people that I love in pain. Feeling really... unloved. Ummm also feeling like I kind of don't have a purpose or what not. Like... any worth.
Who makes you happy?: Steve. Dan. Ian. Carol and Pat never fail to make me laugh, and I can laugh at Courtney... and Katlyn is my best friend so her too ;-)... haha other people too, I give up on names. I love you all :-*.
Depressed?: only like... several people... every so often when I let them get to me.
Are you a really emotional person?: haha more than you'd ever believe
What do you do when you're depressed: didn't we go through this? Sing opera or something totally loud and obnoxious, or like, hang out with Fat cause she always loves me. Haha. Or I just get more depressed, like by reading old internet conversations or old LIVEJOURNAL ENTRIES!!!!! YEAHHHHHH! or watching a horribly sad movie.
What song do you think was written about your life?: Uh I'll tell you when I remember.
When Was The Last Time You..
Burped?: forever ago.
Went to the movies?: you mean went to one that wasn't sold out? haha December 24th.
Went out to eat?: today
Cried?: today
Got dumped?: umm officially never!!! that's why it rules to never date people. haha I win at life.
Dumped someone?: well I did break up with Zeke this summer... it was difficult for him...
Threw up?: a couple months ago, maybe?
Went skating?: I can't even remember.
Went for a walk?: Hahaha right.
Ate ice cream?: Boooo I hate being lactose intolerant.
Got into a fight?: yesterday
Issues
Do you do drugs?: nah
Do you have a mental disablity/illness?: ha, who knows?
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder?: disorder? I'm on about 93492832 meds but not for like... mental things.
Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: not... really...
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: cancer of all sorts... balding!! haha SWEET... horrible vision... umm pretty much everything that sucks, aside from like... spontaneous combustion. I can't wait to get older.
Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: Renee (online)
Yelled at?: probably Dan... jokingly!
Kissed: Steve
Hugged?: Steve
went out to eat with?: Alyssa
Flirted with?: Hahaha Brian ;-)
Talked to on the phone?: Steve
IMed?: Dan
E-Mail?: uh college people? I don't know.
Got flowers from?: my daddy!
Danced with?: uh Dan and I did a SECRET DANCE for the prom fashion show. That counts. Otherwise it was Ben for the musical.
Fought with?: for real fought? my mom maybe.
Worried about?: uh myself getting fatter.
Cried over?: eh I wouldn't say I cried over anybody.
Thought about?: pass
Are you...
Understanding?: I'd say so, I think
Pretty?: Ha
Nice?: To all people at first, yes
A bitch?: If you piss me off... or if I just hate you for no reason, like if you are a little kid or something, hahaha.
Hard to get?: For some people, yes
Confident?: No?
Depressed?: I can get that way, but not generally. I'm pretty happy most of the time nowadays.
Hyper?: A decent amount, yes.
Friendly?: Sure.
Hungry?: Hahaha I don't even know what hunger is anymore since eating is my new breathing and I do it 24/7
Original?: Some would say so
Shy?: Hardly
Emotional?: Yes'm
Messy?: Uh yeah
Immature?: I can be... haha last night I was at rehearsal when we played dumb games!!!
Sad?: I get sad sometimes?
Trusting?: Ehhh I dunno.
Healthy?: No... not at all.
Sleepy?: A wee bit.
Lonely?: Nah.
Independent?: I used to be... before I started thinking about college
Romantic?: Definitely
Do You...
Do you drink [alcohol]?: no
Do you party a lot?: no
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: no
How often do you use the word "like" in an average hour?: probably not tonnnns but more than I should?
Do you skip classes?: no
Do you steal?: no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: uh who knows
Do you drool over celebrities?: haha Kiefer <3 and umm... I dunno, maybe.
Do you watch a lot of TV?: just 24 and the Weather Channel and sometimes stuff before I go to sleep, like Disney Channel.
Do you ever watch the news?: nope. WEATHER CHANNEL baby.
Do you read books often?: nope
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: hahaha not this semester...
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: well I spend most of my time being busy, but friends are usually involved in the business (musical and SAVE and what not...) so I guess?
Do you smoke cigarettes?: no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens: hahaha SEVEN ELEVENS? and no, I don't hang out at the mall now that I'm older than 12.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: I used to get crushes on like, everybody and their mothers (oh yeah you heard me) but in the past couple years it's been a little more steady, haha, specifically the past eight months or so. But I can hardly remember a time when I didn't like anyone.
Do you cuss a lot?: haha cuss. ehh kind of often.
Are you desperate to fit in?: oh totally, it's my dream to be the most popular girl in school. or i don't care.
Are you intelligent?: nope
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearance?: I like clothes? but I couldn't do any less work on my like, hair or makeup (since I wear none) or anything than I already do...
Make-up?: nope
Low-cut tops?: haha uh I've got a couple, maybe...
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: I just like, run my fingers through it nonstop. To fix it slash do the hand-combing thing.
Giggle a lot?: Hahaha maybe?
YM, Teen, Cosmo, at all?: oh I forgot magazines existed!!!
[In the last 24 hours, have you]
(24!!!!!!!!!!)
Cried: yes
Bought something: yes
Gotten sick: yes
Sung: yes
Eaten: yes
Been kissed: yes
Felt stupid: yes
Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: no
Met someone new: yes
Moved on: no
Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes!
Had a serious talk: yes
Missed someone: yes
Hugged someone: yes
Fought with your parents: yes
Dreamed about someone you can't be with: no
[Personal]
Who is your role model: uh I want to say Angelina Jolie and Alanis and a couple other people...
What are some of your pet peeves: uh people, does that count?
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yeah that pretty accurately sums up about 4+ years of my life
Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: a billion times
Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: umm definitely not
Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): yes
Want someone you don't have right now: no
Ever liked your friend: yes
Do you want to get married: yes
Do you want kids: ehhh not really, but how can I say for sure?
Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: uh I'm not psychic, I don't know.
Are you happy with you: no
Are you happy with your life: yes, almost completely
If you could change something in your life right now, what would you change?: umm probably... I would not be so unsure of everything... college, myself, etc
Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue, but neither, haha
Be serious or be funny?: I'm not a funny person...
Do you have a crush? sure
Who is it? Stupid <3
Thanks, Jerk:
Ever Been Called...
Dumb?: yes
Retarded?: yes
Ugly?: yes
Hot?: by dumb people
Fat?: yes
Anorexic?: hahahahaha no one could ever believe that
A waste of space?: hopefully not seriously
Useless?: i think
Smelly?: umm yes like two days ago, AHEM
A Slut?: yes
Beautiful?: yes, by dumb people
Smart?: uh just by my parents?
Quiet?: yes
Boring?: yes
A Bitch?: yes
Rebel?: not for real?
Conceited?: hahaha yes. some people even hate me for it. remember when...?
Currently
What are you wearing?: let's see... a light blue tank top under a hot pink sweatshirt with a waistband thing that has like, a billion colors, and a blue zip-up sweater, and the longest scarf in the universe, and jeans... and a pink belt, and pink shoes with bows... oh yeah and underwear and a bra, haha.
Who are you talking to?: jerk, and i'm talking to steve but he's not talking back
How is the weather?: brrr
What are you listening to?: Counting Crows
What/Who are you thinking about?: Steve and how he sucks online
What are you looking forward to?: mmm summer <3
What are you dreading?: ...summer. haha. or work on saturday. GAHHHH i hate outdoor jobs.
How are you feeling?: my tummy hurts. booo.
How is your hair?: well you asked at a good time, survey! it's actually in an "updo," haha from the prom fashion show tonight. so it's all in loops and curls and stuff. it's totally pretty and i'm trying to leave it in but it's hurting like a bitch, so i don't think i can stand it.
What are you annoyed by?: my tummy. and my fatness. and people.
Emotions
What emotion do you feel the most?: uh i think recently i'd say... satisfied, maybe. most of the time. that's why i cry ALWAYS.
What emotion is the best?: love
Worst?: loneliness/worthlessness
What songs make you cry?: hahaha could I pick just one? I can't listen to Wicked at all anymore because it all makes me cry, specifically Defying Gravity and For Good and I'm Not That Girl and uh, all of them. And some songs from Les Mis always make me cry. And Goodbye Love from RENT. And a couple Ben Folds songs... I guess The Luckiest and We're Still Fighting It and umm... okay forget this. Nine hundred thousand million.
What movies make you cry?: The Notebook, Eternal Sunshine, Garden State, Down to You, Here on Earth (though I haven't watched it in years because it used to make me cry too much), and um, everything remotely cute.
What always cheers you up?: Steve. Umm dressing up usually helps. Haha. Usually singing opera, unless that's the reason I'm upset. And Fat always makes me happy. Oh, and a hearty serving of cheese-on-a-plate. Mmmm.
What makes you madder than anything?: People. Umm, unfairness.
What hurts you the most?: Seeing people that I love in pain. Feeling really... unloved. Ummm also feeling like I kind of don't have a purpose or what not. Like... any worth.
Who makes you happy?: Steve. Dan. Ian. Carol and Pat never fail to make me laugh, and I can laugh at Courtney... and Katlyn is my best friend so her too ;-)... haha other people too, I give up on names. I love you all :-*.
Depressed?: only like... several people... every so often when I let them get to me.
Are you a really emotional person?: haha more than you'd ever believe
What do you do when you're depressed: didn't we go through this? Sing opera or something totally loud and obnoxious, or like, hang out with Fat cause she always loves me. Haha. Or I just get more depressed, like by reading old internet conversations or old LIVEJOURNAL ENTRIES!!!!! YEAHHHHHH! or watching a horribly sad movie.
What song do you think was written about your life?: Uh I'll tell you when I remember.
When Was The Last Time You..
Burped?: forever ago.
Went to the movies?: you mean went to one that wasn't sold out? haha December 24th.
Went out to eat?: today
Cried?: today
Got dumped?: umm officially never!!! that's why it rules to never date people. haha I win at life.
Dumped someone?: well I did break up with Zeke this summer... it was difficult for him...
Threw up?: a couple months ago, maybe?
Went skating?: I can't even remember.
Went for a walk?: Hahaha right.
Ate ice cream?: Boooo I hate being lactose intolerant.
Got into a fight?: yesterday
Issues
Do you do drugs?: nah
Do you have a mental disablity/illness?: ha, who knows?
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder?: disorder? I'm on about 93492832 meds but not for like... mental things.
Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: not... really...
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: cancer of all sorts... balding!! haha SWEET... horrible vision... umm pretty much everything that sucks, aside from like... spontaneous combustion. I can't wait to get older.
Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: Renee (online)
Yelled at?: probably Dan... jokingly!
Kissed: Steve
Hugged?: Steve
went out to eat with?: Alyssa
Flirted with?: Hahaha Brian ;-)
Talked to on the phone?: Steve
IMed?: Dan
E-Mail?: uh college people? I don't know.
Got flowers from?: my daddy!
Danced with?: uh Dan and I did a SECRET DANCE for the prom fashion show. That counts. Otherwise it was Ben for the musical.
Fought with?: for real fought? my mom maybe.
Worried about?: uh myself getting fatter.
Cried over?: eh I wouldn't say I cried over anybody.
Thought about?: pass
Are you...
Understanding?: I'd say so, I think
Pretty?: Ha
Nice?: To all people at first, yes
A bitch?: If you piss me off... or if I just hate you for no reason, like if you are a little kid or something, hahaha.
Hard to get?: For some people, yes
Confident?: No?
Depressed?: I can get that way, but not generally. I'm pretty happy most of the time nowadays.
Hyper?: A decent amount, yes.
Friendly?: Sure.
Hungry?: Hahaha I don't even know what hunger is anymore since eating is my new breathing and I do it 24/7
Original?: Some would say so
Shy?: Hardly
Emotional?: Yes'm
Messy?: Uh yeah
Immature?: I can be... haha last night I was at rehearsal when we played dumb games!!!
Sad?: I get sad sometimes?
Trusting?: Ehhh I dunno.
Healthy?: No... not at all.
Sleepy?: A wee bit.
Lonely?: Nah.
Independent?: I used to be... before I started thinking about college
Romantic?: Definitely
Do You...
Do you drink [alcohol]?: no
Do you party a lot?: no
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: no
How often do you use the word "like" in an average hour?: probably not tonnnns but more than I should?
Do you skip classes?: no
Do you steal?: no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: uh who knows
Do you drool over celebrities?: haha Kiefer <3 and umm... I dunno, maybe.
Do you watch a lot of TV?: just 24 and the Weather Channel and sometimes stuff before I go to sleep, like Disney Channel.
Do you ever watch the news?: nope. WEATHER CHANNEL baby.
Do you read books often?: nope
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: hahaha not this semester...
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: well I spend most of my time being busy, but friends are usually involved in the business (musical and SAVE and what not...) so I guess?
Do you smoke cigarettes?: no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens: hahaha SEVEN ELEVENS? and no, I don't hang out at the mall now that I'm older than 12.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: I used to get crushes on like, everybody and their mothers (oh yeah you heard me) but in the past couple years it's been a little more steady, haha, specifically the past eight months or so. But I can hardly remember a time when I didn't like anyone.
Do you cuss a lot?: haha cuss. ehh kind of often.
Are you desperate to fit in?: oh totally, it's my dream to be the most popular girl in school. or i don't care.
Are you intelligent?: nope
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearance?: I like clothes? but I couldn't do any less work on my like, hair or makeup (since I wear none) or anything than I already do...
Make-up?: nope
Low-cut tops?: haha uh I've got a couple, maybe...
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: I just like, run my fingers through it nonstop. To fix it slash do the hand-combing thing.
Giggle a lot?: Hahaha maybe?
YM, Teen, Cosmo, at all?: oh I forgot magazines existed!!!
[In the last 24 hours, have you]
(24!!!!!!!!!!)
Cried: yes
Bought something: yes
Gotten sick: yes
Sung: yes
Eaten: yes
Been kissed: yes
Felt stupid: yes
Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: no
Met someone new: yes
Moved on: no
Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes!
Had a serious talk: yes
Missed someone: yes
Hugged someone: yes
Fought with your parents: yes
Dreamed about someone you can't be with: no
[Personal]
Who is your role model: uh I want to say Angelina Jolie and Alanis and a couple other people...
What are some of your pet peeves: uh people, does that count?
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yeah that pretty accurately sums up about 4+ years of my life
Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: a billion times
Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: umm definitely not
Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): yes
Want someone you don't have right now: no
Ever liked your friend: yes
Do you want to get married: yes
Do you want kids: ehhh not really, but how can I say for sure?
Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: uh I'm not psychic, I don't know.
Are you happy with you: no
Are you happy with your life: yes, almost completely
If you could change something in your life right now, what would you change?: umm probably... I would not be so unsure of everything... college, myself, etc
Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue, but neither, haha
Be serious or be funny?: I'm not a funny person...
Do you have a crush? sure
Who is it? Stupid <3