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My update earlier was vague so i used and aim convo to explain..
FYI Chris- my B/F
Landry- Best Friend/ Awkwardness galore
Jessica- Jessica Vick Landry's g/f
its nothing really im just really bi polar right now and everything everyone does pisses me off and Chris is working two jobs... or was...i told him it was me or them and told him he needed a real job and to go back to college or i wouldnt marry him like he wants me to. i try to remember that im sensitive and very irrational... but its hard.
not to mention earlier, i talked to landry and he clearly defined how much he wanted to be with me but was holding himself back, and i had to help him figure out how to make his relationship with the other jessica work.
We've liked each other since ninth grade and its been a thing we kept between just us no one knew. no one but us two and having to tell him how to keep him and jess together was hard considering id rather them break up. but because of my love for him. i have to hold myself back and help him the way he needs me most.
Not going for him is something i did and i must deal with. but this also causes awkwardness with chris even though he doesnt know how i feel. i feel bad for having feelings that i cant control. i really love chris, but i loved landry before and now i just want the feelings for landry to go the fuck away.
I don't understand how feelings you have can disappear for years and come flooding back because of a 30 minute conversation.
Jess
FYI Chris- my B/F
Landry- Best Friend/ Awkwardness galore
Jessica- Jessica Vick Landry's g/f
its nothing really im just really bi polar right now and everything everyone does pisses me off and Chris is working two jobs... or was...i told him it was me or them and told him he needed a real job and to go back to college or i wouldnt marry him like he wants me to. i try to remember that im sensitive and very irrational... but its hard.
not to mention earlier, i talked to landry and he clearly defined how much he wanted to be with me but was holding himself back, and i had to help him figure out how to make his relationship with the other jessica work.
We've liked each other since ninth grade and its been a thing we kept between just us no one knew. no one but us two and having to tell him how to keep him and jess together was hard considering id rather them break up. but because of my love for him. i have to hold myself back and help him the way he needs me most.
Not going for him is something i did and i must deal with. but this also causes awkwardness with chris even though he doesnt know how i feel. i feel bad for having feelings that i cant control. i really love chris, but i loved landry before and now i just want the feelings for landry to go the fuck away.
I don't understand how feelings you have can disappear for years and come flooding back because of a 30 minute conversation.
Jess