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I feel really sad right now. I got a letter from Mead today. I should be really excited, right? But after a day of apartment searching with my mother, I really didn't feel like reading what he said. I mean, it wasn't mean or unloveing in the least. Actually, it was about us getting married on his boot leave. Which is a great idea because then I will have insurence and be able to vist him easier. But, he never thinks about me. I moved home to go to school for free. I was to finish school in the time he was gone, then we were going to get married and I was going to move in with him. He doesn't think of me! I need to go to school, even though I don't have a care in the world to go. I'm only going to school, Gods honest truth, to make my family happy. I would love to move with Mead in 4 months and live on a base as a house wife. Or even, a working wife. He said that they have agencies on base that help wives find good jobs. Jobs that you don't need schooling but you make good money with.
I don't know what's wronge. It's not him. Not at all. It's all this shit with Tom and my mother. She's annoying me today. I'm tired and depressed and all I want is Mead to lay with me and hold me as I cry. I can't cry. I need to keep my mother happy because she's going nuts.
It's not my job to do this. It's not my job to keep her happy. It was Toms and he had to be a dick and fuck her over.
I just hate this whole situation...
I don't know what's wronge. It's not him. Not at all. It's all this shit with Tom and my mother. She's annoying me today. I'm tired and depressed and all I want is Mead to lay with me and hold me as I cry. I can't cry. I need to keep my mother happy because she's going nuts.
It's not my job to do this. It's not my job to keep her happy. It was Toms and he had to be a dick and fuck her over.
I just hate this whole situation...