DAMMIT, NATHAN

[harpoon_me]

i love him. i know i love him, i love him more than i could ever express, he's a part of me and i... he's everything to me, i would give up everything to hug him, to look in his eyes... i can't believe i had all this and i lost it all. we were perfect! we had it! i love him so much, goddammit why did i let him walk away? i should have begged him to stay, i shouldn't have let him go, i should have grabbed his hand and told him to stay... i should have done something, anything... i had my chance, i let him go.... it's all my fault. he wouldn't have broken up with me if i had asked him to stay. but i was too proud.... and now i've lost everything. we had the one thing everyone needs... love, companionship, trust, a soulmate.... and i let him walk away because i was too goddamn fucked up. if i had tried a little harder, pushed on a little longer, if i had stuffed all my complaints instead of unloading on him, he wouldn't have dumped me. and now he's dating the perfect girl... janie... he says she's amazing, that they're  really close. but god, i still love him. i think i always will. but i don't think he's ever coming back.

im desperate for advice... if anyone has any, please reply and i will be eternally in your debt