erins comment that wouldnt fit
hey everyone this is a comment erin wanted to leave on
the [Jul. 3rd, 2004|11:26 pm post i did. so im putting it up as a post because it didnt fit the comment box >< lol gotta love the girl.
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hey there,
i feel like i could be at fault for the fight b/w matt and jamie.
........I've known matt since middle school but we didn't become friends until second semester in the 9th grade in mrs. kuliz's class. Matt had the hugest crush on emily. i was em's best friend (still are) and so we talked about he flirts w/ practically every girl in our class or at least tried to. So matt would always come up to em and i before class and hang out with us and then if we had a group project he would do the same. the one day we were in the same group (the 3 of us) for a review game. Matt started to doodle on the desk w/ a blue marker of some sort. At the end of class mrs. kuliz asked us if any of us knew who did it and the tatle tale inside of me said,"i know who did it." so mrs. kuliz pulled me aside and asked who. i said matt adamcheck; so matt ended up cleaning all the desks off serving his detension w/ her. as for matt's love for em, at the beginning of the year (this year 04) it only lasted for 2 weeks. em didn't like matt as a lover she only liked him as a really cool and lol "different" friend. and i felt bad for matt since i was like his phyciatrist for the whole time like if something went wrong b/w them em would call and ask for my opinion and then matt would be on the call waiting... I was always the 3rd wheel but not in a bad way but a good way. I mean like we were all friends and em didn't feel comfortable w/ him alone on the dates so they always asked me to come along. i always had fun but, i knew em was not really feeling matt, she only hugged him and maybe held hands once the whole time they dated. i felt bad for matt cuz i knew he wanted more out of the relationship w/ her and she just didn't want to be his gf she said it was "weird". just because she only liked him as a friend and nothing else. i kind of like matt because em wasn't really spilling out her emotions for him so i felt like i should but then i thought about it and i was like this is my best friend and i can't do this to her. thinking she somewhere in her heart she liked him. so i left it at that and when they broke up i was still friends w/ both for the time being...matt and i only talked for like a month after ward then we just stopped for some reason and didn't talk at all. so he started to talk about this jaime girland how he said she really liked him and that they had a lot in common. I told him wow thats great! but don't fall head over heals when you really have no idea what you are getting yourself into...he kind of took the advive but then...her parents didn't likt the way we appeared to them and how he sometimes acted so he was like forbided to she her for awhile. and i know he hated it because he really loved her somehow. it was like as if i was mad at him when i really wasn't it was like em and just hung out all the time... so later on that year em and i got bf's together(04 sophmores) her bf was best frineds w/ my bf and em and i we're best friends so it all worked out. the four of us together did everything from just rotating movie nights form house to house from just riding around the neighborhood. We always double dated, until my bf called me one night and said that our relationship wasn't working out and i was like what do you mean? everything was fine to me so he caught me off guard. and usually i was the one to break up w/ them not them break up w/ me and i didn't like being on the other side of the spectrum. so we tried it out for another week and then we so called it quits, just because we had one little arguement and that i was quote on quote "so controlling" in the relationship. so i said screw it and tried to go on in my life w/ out him...it was so hard for me. i mean i cried myself to sleep at nights for like a month saying y did he dump me? he loved me, right? and the love was there ask anyone who saw us we were always together and having fun...... until one day after track practice i got a voicemail on my cell from matt and he said he needed to talk to me about something, so i called him back i said, "omg, we haven't talked forever y are u calling me?" and he said he heard about my terrible break up and want to know how i was holding up and i still said, "your calling b/c...not just this right... it's about jaime too.....right...." he said no and said rememeber i said i would always be there for you when i doubt you needed me and i said "yeah......" he said well here i am to help a friend i need. so we ended up going out to the mall on friday night and talk about our love experiences and how they suck ass if the break-up was not wanted...and so our friendship started back up again and so i got to the point again to where i liked him. i had to tell em my feelings for him b/c she dated him and it didn't feel right going out w/ a guy your best friend dated so i seriously needed her consent on this. and i was not the type of girl to say hey, my best friend doesn't like him anymore so i guess i can have him...i didn't want to become that kind of girl; so em and i had a long talk about it and she said she really never dated him (well at least to her) she also said she was really just friends w/ him and that she didn't mind. yet a month previous to this they hated each other....so they forgave each other just for me. so matt and i satrted to date and that yet hasn't ended, i actually don't want it to end it's like i know what kind of person i want in life and that person is matt. he's my everything, from my surfer,frisbee golfer and bmxer to my sweetheart and gives me all that he has just to be with me or to make me happy when i hate the whole world. he's just mine and i feel like it's my turn to say that someone just really loves me for who i am and that that person is you.....i love you matt.....
at times i know jaime still loves matt but, matt just calls her his little freshmen and one of his best friends and kind of leaves it at that. i didn't want jaime to be jelious of me or for me to come off as a mega bitch and say stay away from my man...that's not what it meant i want you and matt to still be friends b/c friends lasts forver and that is the strongest bond you can have w/ someone...b/c you tell them everything and they always will be there for you to help you through.....and i know matt is like your big bro and he always watches out for you and i respect that i always ask him how you are and how life is going for you cuz i know he cares for you cuz your one of his best friends... i just don't want the friendship to end because of me and i hope you guys resolve this ...
~Erin*
************************************************************************************Now my turn, erin its not your fault so dont think it is and i guess jamie claims that she isnt "jelous of you but then she says she ....i have no lcue my dear to be honest...i guess me and jamies friendship has been on "pause" by her. so if ur reading this JAMIE just know that i will still be in your shadows...i will make sure u are ok and,well basicly ill still watch over you like a father/brother. hate to say it like that but like iv said...im not going to sit back and watch anything bad happen to you...
and thank you again erin for being able to understand me so well...i love you so much babe.cant wait till you get back
the [Jul. 3rd, 2004|11:26 pm post i did. so im putting it up as a post because it didnt fit the comment box >< lol gotta love the girl.
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hey there,
i feel like i could be at fault for the fight b/w matt and jamie.
........I've known matt since middle school but we didn't become friends until second semester in the 9th grade in mrs. kuliz's class. Matt had the hugest crush on emily. i was em's best friend (still are) and so we talked about he flirts w/ practically every girl in our class or at least tried to. So matt would always come up to em and i before class and hang out with us and then if we had a group project he would do the same. the one day we were in the same group (the 3 of us) for a review game. Matt started to doodle on the desk w/ a blue marker of some sort. At the end of class mrs. kuliz asked us if any of us knew who did it and the tatle tale inside of me said,"i know who did it." so mrs. kuliz pulled me aside and asked who. i said matt adamcheck; so matt ended up cleaning all the desks off serving his detension w/ her. as for matt's love for em, at the beginning of the year (this year 04) it only lasted for 2 weeks. em didn't like matt as a lover she only liked him as a really cool and lol "different" friend. and i felt bad for matt since i was like his phyciatrist for the whole time like if something went wrong b/w them em would call and ask for my opinion and then matt would be on the call waiting... I was always the 3rd wheel but not in a bad way but a good way. I mean like we were all friends and em didn't feel comfortable w/ him alone on the dates so they always asked me to come along. i always had fun but, i knew em was not really feeling matt, she only hugged him and maybe held hands once the whole time they dated. i felt bad for matt cuz i knew he wanted more out of the relationship w/ her and she just didn't want to be his gf she said it was "weird". just because she only liked him as a friend and nothing else. i kind of like matt because em wasn't really spilling out her emotions for him so i felt like i should but then i thought about it and i was like this is my best friend and i can't do this to her. thinking she somewhere in her heart she liked him. so i left it at that and when they broke up i was still friends w/ both for the time being...matt and i only talked for like a month after ward then we just stopped for some reason and didn't talk at all. so he started to talk about this jaime girland how he said she really liked him and that they had a lot in common. I told him wow thats great! but don't fall head over heals when you really have no idea what you are getting yourself into...he kind of took the advive but then...her parents didn't likt the way we appeared to them and how he sometimes acted so he was like forbided to she her for awhile. and i know he hated it because he really loved her somehow. it was like as if i was mad at him when i really wasn't it was like em and just hung out all the time... so later on that year em and i got bf's together(04 sophmores) her bf was best frineds w/ my bf and em and i we're best friends so it all worked out. the four of us together did everything from just rotating movie nights form house to house from just riding around the neighborhood. We always double dated, until my bf called me one night and said that our relationship wasn't working out and i was like what do you mean? everything was fine to me so he caught me off guard. and usually i was the one to break up w/ them not them break up w/ me and i didn't like being on the other side of the spectrum. so we tried it out for another week and then we so called it quits, just because we had one little arguement and that i was quote on quote "so controlling" in the relationship. so i said screw it and tried to go on in my life w/ out him...it was so hard for me. i mean i cried myself to sleep at nights for like a month saying y did he dump me? he loved me, right? and the love was there ask anyone who saw us we were always together and having fun...... until one day after track practice i got a voicemail on my cell from matt and he said he needed to talk to me about something, so i called him back i said, "omg, we haven't talked forever y are u calling me?" and he said he heard about my terrible break up and want to know how i was holding up and i still said, "your calling b/c...not just this right... it's about jaime too.....right...." he said no and said rememeber i said i would always be there for you when i doubt you needed me and i said "yeah......" he said well here i am to help a friend i need. so we ended up going out to the mall on friday night and talk about our love experiences and how they suck ass if the break-up was not wanted...and so our friendship started back up again and so i got to the point again to where i liked him. i had to tell em my feelings for him b/c she dated him and it didn't feel right going out w/ a guy your best friend dated so i seriously needed her consent on this. and i was not the type of girl to say hey, my best friend doesn't like him anymore so i guess i can have him...i didn't want to become that kind of girl; so em and i had a long talk about it and she said she really never dated him (well at least to her) she also said she was really just friends w/ him and that she didn't mind. yet a month previous to this they hated each other....so they forgave each other just for me. so matt and i satrted to date and that yet hasn't ended, i actually don't want it to end it's like i know what kind of person i want in life and that person is matt. he's my everything, from my surfer,frisbee golfer and bmxer to my sweetheart and gives me all that he has just to be with me or to make me happy when i hate the whole world. he's just mine and i feel like it's my turn to say that someone just really loves me for who i am and that that person is you.....i love you matt.....
at times i know jaime still loves matt but, matt just calls her his little freshmen and one of his best friends and kind of leaves it at that. i didn't want jaime to be jelious of me or for me to come off as a mega bitch and say stay away from my man...that's not what it meant i want you and matt to still be friends b/c friends lasts forver and that is the strongest bond you can have w/ someone...b/c you tell them everything and they always will be there for you to help you through.....and i know matt is like your big bro and he always watches out for you and i respect that i always ask him how you are and how life is going for you cuz i know he cares for you cuz your one of his best friends... i just don't want the friendship to end because of me and i hope you guys resolve this ...
~Erin*
************************************************************************************Now my turn, erin its not your fault so dont think it is and i guess jamie claims that she isnt "jelous of you but then she says she ....i have no lcue my dear to be honest...i guess me and jamies friendship has been on "pause" by her. so if ur reading this JAMIE just know that i will still be in your shadows...i will make sure u are ok and,well basicly ill still watch over you like a father/brother. hate to say it like that but like iv said...im not going to sit back and watch anything bad happen to you...
and thank you again erin for being able to understand me so well...i love you so much babe.cant wait till you get back