Owner of a guilty heart
I feel guilty. I feel this way because I can't just seem to snap out of it and be happy and enjoy life for those around me. That has always gotten me through bouts of depression before. I would think about the people in my life, and think about wanting them to be happy. That alone would let me at least fake joy until I snapped out of whatever depressive slump I was in at the time, but this time is different. I can't manage to hold onto happiness for the good of the people I care about right now, and that makes me feel even worse. I feel like I am failing them =[